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From Yesterday, Post 12-B/20, PG-13, Dean, Sam, OCs, GEN

Title: From Yesterday
Fandom: Supernatural
Author: gaelicspirit
Characters: Dean, Sam, and OCs
Disclaimer: They're not mine. More's the pity. Title is from a 30 Seconds to Mars song of the same name. Rated very much PG-13 for language (mostly Dean) and a couple of mature scenes

Summary: See Prologue.

Part Two: Chapter 11-A


His head was hollow and roughly three sizes larger than it should be.

Dean had to move very carefully or he was absolutely certain it was going to tumble from his shoulders and roll across the room. Then again, he'd probably feel a hell of a lot better if that were the case, so maybe he should just let it happen. Taking a breath, Dean rolled carefully to his side, cautiously opening his eyes.

Sunlight streamed in through his window, harsh and bright, forcing him to slam his eyes closed once more. His stomach rolled, his skin felt gritty with dried-on sweat, and his right hand had its own heartbeat. He lifted it, blearily looking at the knotted scar on his palm. His fingers seemed swollen and stiff, his wrist ached, but other than that, the appendage appeared the same.

Sam had said he'd used it. To try to strangle his brother, sure, but he'd used it.

Taking a shaky, steadying breath, Dean pushed himself slowly upright, then paused there as the world caught up. He refused to get sick. It would not happen. He'd accept a raging, kill-me-now headache, but he'd be damned if he puked his guts out the morning after a whiskey bender. No. Just…no.

Oh, God, I'm gonna be sick….

Pressing the back of his left hand to his mouth, he closed his eyes and sat very still, breathing slowly and carefully through his nose, willing his stomach to settle. His mouth wasn't helping matters; his teeth felt like they had hair on them and the back of his tongue tasted like ass.

Fuck. He hadn't been this hungover in…hell, he couldn't remember. But it had been awhile.

After several long moments, Dean realized that he was out of the danger zone – at least for the time being – and it might be safe to stand. The world shifted around him and he reached helplessly for the nearest wall.

Is the world actually spinning? Is this a thing now? He liked it better when he took the motion for granted, not when he could feel it.

His throbbing head mocking him mercilessly, he made it to the door of his bedroom before he had to pause once more to breathe through the nausea. It was only then he realized that the voices he'd heard upon waking weren't classic rock in nature.

It was Sam. Talking to Stella. About Dean.

"…I told you about that night back in February," Sam was saying. "And he does this…this thing with his hands. Like he can't get them clean." Sam sighed deeply, tiredly. "It doesn't help to point out that there's nothing there. Nothing on them."

"He has all the classic signs, Sam," Stella replied. "You said he's had nightmares for years."

"Yeah, but last night was bad," Sam sighed again. He sounded exhausted. Dean wondered how much his brother had slept that night. "I'm sure it was mostly because of the alcohol, but…I mean, this all happened to him years ago. Why now?"

Dean frowned, cradling his scarred hand against his chest and leaning against the door frame to listen. And to regain his balance. He could really, really, use some coffee. About a gallon of it would do just fine.

"Because it's quiet," Stella replied, her voice a gentle caress against Sam's worried tones. He wasn't sure how much Stella knew, or what version of the truth Sam had shared with her about Hell and Stull, but it was clear she knew something."Because you guys are…retired. Because he doesn't have to worry about all the other stuff he's had to worry about before. Now there's space for everything that was chasing him to catch up."

"So it's my fault, then," Sam said with resignation.

"Well, did you torture him? Did you take him away from his family?"

"No," Sam replied sullenly. "But I'm making him live this life. I'm the reason for the quiet."

"Sam," Stella sighed his brother's name and Dean heard a chair push back from the table. "Your brother isn't a prisoner. You aren't chaining him to this town or to you. He's a grown-up. If he wanted to leave, he could."

"You don't get it," Sam replied. "Dean would never leave me."

"That's his choice, then."

"He never had a choice," Sam mumbled.

"When you were younger, maybe." Dean heard Stella's voice fade a bit as if she were turning away. "But he has a choice now."

Sam didn't reply. Dean felt his heart slam against the base of his throat, waiting for their next words. He was sweating and his right hand shook against his side in time with the pounding in his head, but he couldn't move.

"Dean is staying because he needs to," Stella declared. "You have to see that. He's here because he chooses to be."

"Yeah, well."

"Yeah well nothing," Stella's voice got stronger and Dean could picture her leaning closer to Sam to make her point. "You aren't making him do anything. You're not keeping him from some magic life. So stop playing the victim."

Dean blinked at that. He wasn't surprised when he didn't hear Sam respond.

"You said this old friend of yours has a problem you guys can fix?"

"I think so," Sam sighed. "We've dealt with witches before."

Dean straightened up, his pounding head momentarily forgotten. Sam had mentioned witches last night as well.

"And you think Dean needs closure or something with this woman?"

"Or something," Sam mumbled.

"Then go. Take care of it. And come home."

"It's not that easy…," Sam hedged.

"Why?"

Stella was beginning to sound angry. And confused. And Dean didn't blame her. He wasn't sure he understood himself anymore.

"Because I asked him to stop hunting. How do I tell him we need to start again?"

"You made an exception for my mom," Stella pointed out.

"That's different," Sam protested.

Why? Dean wondered.

"Why?" Stella asked.

"Because with this, Dean might not—"

"Come back?" Stella filled in. "That's it, isn't it? It's all or nothing with you."

Dean winced at her tone, even though her words were dead on. Choosing that moment to make his presence known, he stumbled forward, purposely stepping on the creaking floorboard and entered the kitchen as all conversation ceased.

"Please," he growled out, his voice sounding like a rock star on a bender, "somebody. Tell me you have coffee."

"Well, hey there, sunshine," Sam greeted a little too brightly. "I was about to head in there and put a mirror under your nose."

"Time 's it?" Dean peered at them through puffy eyes, squinting against the sunlight streaming in. Stella always pulled the shades up; he preferred the more cave-like environment of safely covered windows. Especially when sunlight turned into spears through his eyes.

"About two."

"Oh, God," Dean groaned rubbing his forehead with the heel of his hand. "Mason's gonna kill me."

"I called him," Sam replied. "It's okay."

Dean narrowed his eyes at them, taking note of how Stella was studying him. "How long you been up, man?"

"Since nine."

"He didn't have a choice," Stella commented, affectionately ruffling Sam's hair. "I made him get up. And I'll fix you some coffee."

Dean blinked at her, working his mouth into the semblance of a smile. The world shifted around him once more and he felt the queasy, sweaty feeling of impending sickness. Closing his eyes he took a long, slow breath, then opened them once more to see two pairs of eyes looking at him with a mixture of trepidation and curiosity.

"Shower," he said, squinting and pointing in the general direction of the bathroom.

Their conversation began once more as he left the room, but they strayed to safer topics, aware now that there were listening ears. Dean stepped into the bathroom and turned the water on high and hot, canceling out anything else he might have heard. He took care of business and brushed his teeth before stepping into the steam behind the glass door.

Turning away from the water, he let the pressure beat against the stiff muscles along his back and neck, then he rotated to let it wash away the whiskey-tinged cobwebs still muddling his head. Stella was right: he had a choice. And for the last six months, he'd chosen to live a promise he made to Sam simply to keep his brother happy.

It was Dean's fall-back position: watch out for Sam. When his brother wasn't in mortal peril, that constituted making sure Sam was happy, whether that meant stepping between him and John and breaking up a fight, or supporting Sam as he left for college, or giving up hunting completely to live a normal life.

But Sam had said as much last night: Dean wasn't living this life. He was merely surviving it. Finding a way to make it work because the alternative was too hard. The alternative was scary. The alternative held the very real possibility of his being alone – really and truly alone. And Dean had never really done alone well.

Dean leaned his left hand on the cool tile wall and bowed his head beneath the shower, watching as the water ran down the contours of his body – a body changed by circumstance and re-formed by training. He was leaner than before, but strong and sturdy. His right hand might never consciously obey him, but he'd learned to compensate with his left. And though his left eye was damaged, he'd figured out how to see around his own blind spot.

Physically, he was as healthy as he could be – scars and all.

Mentally…that was another story. He thought back to what Sam had said, about his trying to rid his hands of the blood he always felt staining them. He hadn't realized he did it so often – or that Sam noticed it. He knew Sam was aware of the nightmares; he'd lost count of the number of times his brother had been there, waking him, drawing him away from the Hell that waited in the darkness. But he hadn't realized how obvious it was to his brother how hard he fought just to get through the day sometimes.

Rubbing his thumb gently across the coil of scar tissue in the palm of his right hand, Dean wished he could find a way to heal his mind the same way. Sure he couldn't use this hand, not really. But the open wound was no longer there. And he'd found ways to get over the loss of what had once come so naturally to him.

He didn't know how to force his mind to scar over. He didn't know how to make the nightmares stop. He didn't know how to get over everything that had happened to him. He only knew how to ignore it. He knew how to stuff it down. He knew how to use it.

He needed to be a hunter. But Sam did not. It was as simple and as complicated as that.

Turning off the shower, his headache reduced to more of an annoyance than something that threatened to take him to his knees, Dean wrapped a towel around his waist. The shower had helped him sweat out a good portion of the alcohol that had threatened to turn his stomach inside out. He wiped the steam from the small mirror above the sink and used the electric razor to shave as much as he'd been able to since losing the dexterity of his right hand.

Feeling slightly more human, he made his way to his room to dress, the smell of fresh coffee making his mouth water. He heard Sam's laugh echoed by Stella and was glad that they weren't talking about him anymore. It would make what he had to say a little easier.

Freshly clothed, he headed back to the kitchen and took his promised cup of coffee from Stella's hand, smiling his thanks before turning to his brother. Sam didn't know it yet, but Dean's days of acquiescing because it was easier than facing the truth were over.

"Tell me about the witches," he ordered.

Sam blinked, his face paling. "Wh-what?"

"I know you called Virgil back," Dean told him. "Last night you said Brenna needed help with witches."

Sam looked down at the table, irritation at himself etched on his face like closed captioning. "I don't remember saying that."

"Well, unless I've picked up another power, I'm not a mind-reader, so…."

Stella frowned at him. "Another power?"

Dean gave her a smile, thought it didn't quite reach his eyes. "Long story."

So, Sam hadn't told her about the amulet yet. Dean supposed that would come when and if his brother decided how serious he was about her. He looked at Sam, his eyebrows up, waiting.

"Are you saying you want us to help them?" Sam asked, looking up at Dean with that same childlike expression that always hit him in the knees.

"No," Dean finished his coffee and then turned away to pour himself more. "I'm saying tell me about the witches."

With a sigh, Sam relayed what he'd learned in his conversation with Virgil, which in Dean's estimation was a whole lot of nothing.

"So, basically, we got four dead bodies—"

"Three," Sam corrected. "And one missing."

"Fine," Dean lifted a shoulder, bringing his mug to his lips. "Three dead bodies. And a town full of people jumping to conclusions."

"Well, and that draíocht thing Brenna was talking about."

"Right. Druids," Dean rolled his eyes. "Nothing like a secret order of robe wearers to make a mess of things." He sipped his coffee, masking his worry with sarcasm, his stomach clenching.

Brenna had never been wrong, not once in each encounter they'd had with her. She'd identified the banshee – or bean-sidhe as she'd known it – when John had been thinking witch. She'd known about the wraith and the wizard. If she said this druid witch was involved, Dean was betting she was right. But Sam didn't need to know how much the idea of that frightened him.

"Virgil seemed pretty shaken up, Dean," Sam frowned at him.

"Oh, I'm sure he was. He never did take these things well," Dean set his cup aside, then crossed his arms over his growling stomach. "Okay, so…I'll talk to Mason and head out in the morning."

Sam looked up at him and Dean caught Stella's double-take. "Wait, what?"

"It's witches, Sam," Dean said calmly. "Bird bones, bodily fluids, incantations, all that shit. Nothing we haven't handled before. I got this."

Sam shoved his chin forward, his hands open on the table in a gesture of disbelief. "You forgetting you almost died last time? Razor blades in the stomach ring any bells?"

Dean scrunched his face up, scratching the back of his head. "Yeah, that hurt like a bitch. But…hey, now we know about hex bags. Win win."

"You're crazy." Sam stood up.

Dean tilted his head in concession at that.

Sam crossed his arms, his expression stone. "I can't let you go."

Taking a breath, Dean glanced at Stella then slid his eyes over to Sam. If she was going to stay with Sam, she needed to see more than just beers and barbeques and brotherly love between them. She needed to see the real Winchesters.

And Dean was pretty sure that things were about to get real.

"Sam," he said quietly, his tone betraying none of the restless energy and anxiety currently bouncing his heart against his ribcage. "You asked me for six months. It's been six months."

Sam closed his mouth with a click, his hands sliding from his chest to his hips.

"I kept my promise," Dean continued. "I didn't look for a hunt, I got healthy—"

"Healthy, my ass!" Sam exploded. "You sleep like two hours a night! The rest is all…Hell and torture and—"

"I got strong," Dean amended, keeping his tone even, though he could feel his hands begin to tremble, folded beneath his arms. "But the world didn't end, man, and I have to decide who I'm going to be now." He stepped forward, his eyes level, fighting to ignore the look of panic shimmering from Sam's hazel eyes. "You have to let me decide."

"You can't just…just fall back on what you used to do," Sam protested, moving toward Dean in his earnestness. Dean worked to control his breathing, to not feel confronted, to listen carefully to what Sam wasn't saying as well as to what he was. "You only became a hunter because of Dad…and Dad only became a hunter because of what happened to Mom."

"But Mom was a hunter, Sam," Dean reminded him. "It's in our blood, it's part of our history…our DNA. It's part of me."

Sam shook his head, looking away.

"I know you're worried," Dean said, carefully choosing his words. "I know you think I won't make it. I know you're protecting me. But I know what I'm doing. And I won't be alone."

Sam scoffed. "You mean Virge?" he asked, looking back at Dean. He stepped forward. "Brenna? If she wanted to, she could see right through you."

Dean nodded; he was counting on that. He'd never been able to lie to her; her druid ancestry had marked her with a gift – or curse, depending on who was asked – that had freed Dean from pretense where Brenna was concerned.

"I know."

As Sam slowly advanced, Dean forced himself to stand his ground, to not back away, but felt his heart race at the dangerous glint in Sam's eye. The strange, magnetized force he'd felt last night seemed to grow stronger the closer Sam got.

"You gonna let her see everything?" Sam challenged. "See what I've seen?"

Dean saw Stella shift at that, staying silent, but intent on their exchange. He didn't blame her; the direction of their conversation impacted her as well.

"Sometimes…people need to see the truth," Dean said, letting meaning hang heavy from the end of his sentence.

Sam turned away, shoving a hand through his hair and Dean relaxed slightly.

"I can't let you go," Sam repeated, dropping his head, "alone."

Dean didn't reply, knowing enough to wait his brother out. Stella, however, didn't know Sam as well.

"Sam!" She protested. "Listen to him. He wants to do this – let him go do this!"

Sam turned to her. "This isn't like your mom's house, Stel," he said. "This is…it's bigger."

"He said he wouldn't be alone," Stella reminded him, stepping forward, looking up at him with an expression Dean had seen before: recognition of the loss of control. "He's not asking you to go."

Sam put his hands on her shoulders. They seemed to engulf her. "I know," he said softly. "And that's why I have to."

Stella looked at Dean. He took a shallow breath, knowing what was coming next.

"Tell him not to go," she asked Dean. "He'll listen to you."

Dean looked down. "I can't do that."

"Why not?" Stella asked, her voice cracking.

Dean didn't reply; he pushed his lips out, waiting for Sam, knowing his brother would step in.

"Stella," Sam started.

"No," Stella pushed away from Sam. "This is stupid. You said you were done. Retired. This isn't you. You're not a hunter anymore!"

"But I am a brother," Sam replied, his voice soft, acceptance filtering in. "And I need to do this."

For several heartbeats, silence pervaded the small house. Clearing his throat, Dean took a step around Sam and Stella, heading for the door.

"Keys?" He asked without looking back.

"TV," Sam replied.

Dean saw them on top of the TV, snagged them, then with his hand on the doorknob said over his shoulder, "I'm heading over to Mason's. You guys just…take your time."

He didn't wait for either of them to respond. The humidity of the June afternoon gave him the space to breathe he'd been searching for inside the small house. Sliding behind the wheel of the Impala gave him a renewed sense of purpose, as if suddenly he had a direction, a plan. Something solid he could stand on.

He circled through a drive thru – a greasy cheeseburger was just what the hangover ordered – and headed to Mason's garage. He didn't want to leave his friend short a mechanic, but he was hoping the big man would understand why he was leaving.

"Mace!"

"Inna ba'" came the garbled reply.

Frowning, Dean headed through the shop, waving at Mia who smiled wide enough he saw her gold tooth. He headed to Mason's office and saw Sergeant Kirby Jackson was sitting in there with Mason, his feet propped up on the desk. Mason sat behind his desk, a pencil clutched in his teeth, another behind his ear, and a third being used to mark down numbers on a spreadsheet.

He looked up at Dean's entrance and spit out the pencil. "Thought you were sick?"

Dean pulled a cheeseburger out from the sack he carried, peeling back the wrapper. "Whiskey flu," he said around a large bite.

"Heard that was going around," Jackson commented dryly, his large hands folded over his chest.

"Tommy?" Dean guessed.

Mason shrugged, sighing, and tossed the pencil he'd been writing with down next to the one he'd spit out. "Think I'm going to have to let him go," he said. "Trying to work out the numbers on how I can make things work with two again."

Dean nodded, tucking his tongue in his teeth, then wadded up his now-empty wrapper and tossed it across Jackson to hit the trash basket.

"About that," he said, leaning against the window, his back to the garage. "Need to talk to you a minute."

"This about Sorenson?" Jackson asked.

Dean frowned. "Sorenson? No, why?"

Jackson dropped his feet from Mason's desk, sitting forward to prop his elbows on his knees. "Thought he might've called you. Seems he's been trying to dig up some leads on your cold case since March."

"Is that right?" Dean asked, sucking on his teeth. "Well, he hasn't called."

"He might," Jackson warned him. "Just a heads up."

"What's going on, kid?" Mason asked, leaning back in his chair, his blue eyes intent as they studied Dean.

"I need to go away for awhile," Dean said. "Couple weeks at least."

"Away where?"

"Colorado."

Mason narrowed his eyes. "Vacation?"

Dean couldn't help himself. He chuckled. "No, nothing like that. A friend of ours is in trouble."

"What kind of trouble?" Jackson asked.

Dean looked at him. "The kind that makes cold cases."

Jackson nodded slowly, looking down.

"Thought you two were retired," Mason asked, frowning.

Dean didn't address that directly. "This friend…has been through a lot with us."

"Can't call another hunter on this one, huh?" Mason guessed.

Dean shook his head.

"So…you just gotta go burn some bones in Colorado?" Jackson asked. "Why do you need a couple weeks?"

Dean cleared his throat, rolling his neck. "This…isn't a spirit."

"What is it?"

"Looks like a witch," he replied.

"A witch," Mason echoed, his voice dull.

"As in green face…broomstick…flying monkeys?" Jackson almost-laughed.

Dean shook his head. "As in human sacrifices, hex bags, and spells that can melt your bones while you're still breathing."

"Ah, right. Those kind of witches. Got it." Jackson lifted his eyebrows and looked over at Mason.

"And…you know how to, ah...kill it? Them?" Mason's frown had grown darker as Dean spoke.

Dean wrinkled his nose. "It's a bit of a gray area. Witches are human. So…generally binding their powers is preferred. But…, when it's you or them…."

"I have officially stopped listening," Jackson muttered, lifting a hand.

Mason stared at Dean. "Can I ask you something, kid?"

"Sure."

"When you were hunting before, all those years…where'd you live?"

Dean lifted a shoulder. "Nowhere, really. The Impala. Motels. Abandoned houses."

"But this time, you're coming back," Mason clarified, his tone doubtful.

Dean looked down. "Sam's coming with me," he replied, walking around the question with careful words.

"I see," Mason nodded. The office was quiet a moment save for the sound of Mia's drill and the Rolling Stone's Shelter From the Storm echoing across the poor acoustics of the garage. "I can hold your job for two weeks. After that, I need you back, or I need to know why."

Dean nodded.

"Without pay," Mason added, leaning forward to look at the spreadsheet he'd been working on.

"Fair enough." Dean pushed away from the window and turned to leave.

"Dean."

Dean paused, looking back at his boss.

"You sure you got this?"

Dean nodded. "Yeah. I'm sure."

"'Cause I ain't above heading out to Colorado to bind some witches," Mason grumbled. "I just don't want to put broken pieces of you back together."

Dean gave him a small smile. "You won't."

"Holding you to that," Mason said gruffly before turning back to his spreadsheet.

Dean glanced back at Jackson and nodded. "Keep an eye on him."

"Like always," Jackson nodded back.

Dean stepped out of the office and started to head out of the garage, then stopped and made his way over to Mia. He tapped her on the shoulder and waited until she turned around, wrench in one hand, oil can in the other. He leaned over and gave her a hug, which she leaned into with surprise.

"What was that for?" She asked.

"For being a decent human being, Mia," Dean said with a smile. "See ya later."

Mia blushed. "See ya."

Dean made his way to the Impala, calling Rufus as he walked. Getting the older hunter's voice mail, he slid behind the wheel and said into the phone, "Rufus. Got a hunt out your way. Ish. Need you to meet us in Limon with some supplies. I'll text you the list."

Turning on the car, he headed back home, feeling better than he had in weeks.


Sam was still half asleep when they pulled away from the little house the next morning.

The air smelled clean after the midnight thunderstorm and the world looked new and alarmingly safe. He'd spent the rest of the previous day with Stella, then called his boss at Freestate to request a leave of absence for a family emergency. He was granted two weeks as un-paid vacation, though it hadn't been done happily.

Stella hadn't been there to see him off; she'd stayed with him into the night, but headed back to her place around midnight. Sam hadn't really cared if his brother had heard them. Dean wasn't new at this. He knew what it meant when the bedroom door was shut.

To Dean's credit, he didn't say a word when Sam walked Stella to her car, then came back inside and headed straight to his room. He'd simply sat on the couch, his guns spread out before him, cleaning each meticulously, a rerun of Magnum P.I. playing silently on the TV.

Sam woke up to the sound of his brother moving around in the kitchen. He wasn't really sure Dean had slept the night before, but he didn't ask. He'd just packed his duffel, dropping it into the trunk on top of where Dean had once more stored their weapons, and climbed into the passenger seat. Their apartment had been paid up through the rest of the month; if they were back inside the two week window their jobs allowed, no one would bother their house.

"Mason said he'd grab the mail for us," Dean told his brother as they headed down the road toward I-70.

"'Kay," Sam yawned, finding it interesting that Dean had thought to make sure the mail was cared for. His brother had not lived at a place that actually got regular mail in almost twenty years. "Coffee?"

"Pulling over at the truck stop outside of Topeka," Dean replied.

Sam nodded, scrunching down in the seat, trying to get comfortable against the door as he had so many times before. He watched Dean push a cassette into the player and sighed in audible resignation as Led Zeppelin's Kashmir filled the interior of the car. The strange familiarity of the scene felt like a dream; if he closed his eyes, Sam could almost convince himself he wasn't here, he was back in his bed, his arms wrapped around Stella's warm shoulders.

"Rufus called," Dean told him. "He can't meet us in Limon; he's up north on a job. We have to jump up to Omaha real quick."

"He got what we need?" Sam asked, eyes closed.

"Yeah," Dean replied, turning up the music. "Go back to sleep."

Sam sighed. Familiarity did indeed breed contempt, he thought, but stifled any audible protest. He took the coffee when Dean stopped, checked the map for the shortest route, searched his phone when cell towers allowed for any information he could glean on Argo, CO. It was only after they'd stopped for lunch in Omaha and to get the supplies Dean requested from Rufus that it occurred to Sam he hadn't shared one very important piece of information with Dean.

"You boys be careful," Rufus admonished as he handed over the book on binding rituals and box containing the herbs and oils they'd need to make the rituals work. "Shouldn't have to tell you that binding spells are dangerous."

He looked meaningfully at Dean's right hand.

"Don't worry," Dean replied, his tone at once both confident and troubled. Sam knew his brother was putting up a front – had been since they'd decided to drink the house dry two nights ago. But he couldn't find the chink in Dean's armor to prove this fact and right now, Dean needed that armor. "If this doesn't work, we'll just shoot the bitch."

Rufus bounced his head once. "How you been sleeping, Dean?"

"On my back, mostly," Dean retorted, the flat look in his eyes betraying nothing.

"Well. You know where to find me, you need help," Rufus said finally, shaking their hands – being sure to reach for Dean's left hand, Sam noticed – and heading back to his truck.

Dean used the break to re-pack the weapons, putting the ritual supplies inside the hidden compartment with their guns.

"Could be more than one, you know," Sam reminded him, watching. He hadn't seen Dean move this confidently, this easily, in a long time. Not even at Mason's when he'd watched his brother work on cars or take on the heavy bag. "Virge was saying coven."

"Virge wasn't sure what he was dealing with," Dean replied. "One powerful witch can seem like a coven. You know that."

"Dean, there's something else," Sam told him as Dean closed the trunk. "I didn't tell Virge about you."

Dean turned to him, the slant of the afternoon light causing him to narrow his eyes. "Didn't tell him what about me?"

Sam rubbed the back of his neck. "That you were…uh…back."

Dean tilted his head. "Back."

"From Hell."

Dean tipped his chin up. "He thinks I'm dead."

"So does Brenna," Sam nodded.

Dean pushed his lips out in thought and looked away. Sam braced himself, unsure of his brother's reaction to this news.

"Well," Dean thunked his knuckles against the Impala's trunk. "I'm gonna be a helluva surprise then, huh?"

Dean started to move around him and Sam rotated, snagging the edge of Dean's T-shirt. To his surprise, he felt that push – the slight heat mirrored by the strange magnet force – he'd felt the night back at their house. It wasn't strong, but it was enough to make him pull his hand away.

Sam wondered if Dean were even aware he was doing it.

"Wait," Sam called as he dropped his hand. "That's it? Surprise, I'm back from the dead?"

"You got a better idea?" Dean asked, pulling open the driver's side door and pausing long enough to look up at Sam. His eyes seemed to shimmer slightly in the heat-filtered light.

Sam watched him a moment, then shook his head. "Not really."

"Okay then," Dean shrugged, climbing into the car, the discussion over.

Sam continued to amuse himself with online searches, texts to and from Stella, and links to books he'd been reading back home while Dean drove on. They headed through a drive thru around dinner time, once they reached the Colorado border, and Dean cycled through the next round of cassettes. Sam was leaning against the window, admiring the number of stars he could see out on the west Colorado plains, when Dean suddenly pulled over to the side of the road.

"What's the matter?" Sam asked.

Dean was rubbing his right hand on his leg in that strange gesture Sam had started noticing back in February – as if he couldn't get it clean.

"Think you could drive for a bit?"

Surprised, Sam stared at his brother. Dean never willing gave up the wheel unless he was hurt.

"You okay?" Sam asked, scanning Dean's profile. Aside from the muscle bouncing along Dean's jaw line, Sam couldn't see anything wrong.

"Yeah, I just…," Dean rolled his neck, keeping his eyes on the dash. "Can't see real good at night."

Sam gaped. "What?"

Dean gestured almost dismissively to his left eye. "Hard to focus on the road and not the lights."

"How…how come you never said anything before?"

Dean lifted a shoulder. "Didn't really matter before."

"But you've been driving at night in Lawrence," Sam protested, still dumbfounded that he'd not picked up on this.

Dean sighed, looking over at Sam. "I knew Lawrence. There were street lights. I made do. You want me to make do on the Interstate?"

Sam shook his head. "No, it's okay, I just—"

"I get it," Dean cut him off, pulling his legs up from the wheel well and shifting sideways. "You didn't know. You do now."

Sam muttered to himself as he climbed over Dean, neither of them wanting to get out of the car at night on the Interstate with semi-trucks barreling along at seventy miles per hour. Once Sam was behind the wheel and Dean in the passenger seat, he pulled out on the road again. After he'd picked up speed, he reached for the cassette, ejecting it and spinning the dial.

"Dude," Dean protested.

"Dude nothing," Sam retorted. "Driver picks the music."

"Son of a bitch," Dean groaned good naturedly, scrunching down in the seat and leaning against the window, eyes closed.

Sam drove on, picking up a station out of Boulder, and bouncing his fingers along with the Foo Fighters. It didn't take him long to get into the rhythm of driving the highway at night, Dean sleeping next to him. It felt almost…normal. In fact, though he'd be loathe to admit it, it felt like the first really normal thing he'd done in months.

When Sam pulled over to a gas station a few miles outside of Denver, he woke Dean up, registering that it was the first time his brother had slept more than two hours straight without nightmares in longer than he could remember.

"You want to get a room? Don't think we should head up the mountain at night," Sam said as he filled up the Impala's tank.

Dean stood and stretched, his face slightly puffy from sleep. "Nah," he said, then leaned on the roof of the Impala, looking over at his brother. "We can just find a side road. Catch a few hours."

Sam nodded. He'd just as soon save their money as well.

"You change your mind about calling ahead?" Sam asked.

Dean frowned. "What for?"

"To warn Brenna," Sam replied, holstering the gas pump back into its slot and pulling the receipt free.

Dean rolled his eyes. "We're going up there to help them with some witches," he said. "That's it. Me being alive just means is they've got more help."

They climbed inside the car and Sam pulled back out onto the main road, eyes searching for a safe turn-off.

"You loved her once, Dean," he said. "Time doesn't just…erase those feelings."

"Hell does," Dean muttered, leaning against the window again. "She doesn't need to be saddled with a broken-down version of someone she once knew."

Sam looked over at his brother, brow furrowed, but Dean's eyes were closed once more. Giving in for the moment, Sam saw a frontage road that appeared to lead into a wooded area. He exited, then pulled off the road and shut off the car. It had always been easier to sleep in the Impala on summer road trips; during the fall and winter, nights got so cold he couldn't sleep for shivering.

But as it was, the June night was soft, the stars were a blanket of light across an ink-black sky, and the wind offered just enough comfort as he rolled down his window, Sam was asleep within minutes. As was usual since the amulet had eradicated the devil from his mind, his sleep was peaceful, undisturbed until he felt the car rock and heard the door creak as Dean exited.

The morning light was still thin, barely penetrating the coverage of trees, but offering enough illumination that Sam could see the interior of the now-empty car. It was oddly comforting, once more waking in the arms of the Impala. No matter how he tried to create an environment of right and should be with their house back in Lawrence, nothing felt quite as much like home as the Impala.

Blinking blearily, arms outstretched on a quiet yawn, Sam looked through the windshield to see Dean leaning stiff-armed against the hood of the car, head hanging low, his shoulders heaving with rough breaths. Sam froze, watching, as Dean lifted his head and used the back of his hand to wipe what could have been sweat, but what Sam was willing to swear were tears, from his face. Dean licked his lips, then ran a hand roughly through his short hair before turning away from the car and heading into the woods.

Sam hadn't heard his brother's dream this time, but that clearly hadn't meant Dean escaped nightmare-free. Stella's point that the damage done to his brother in Hell – and honestly, every moment since then – only catching up to him in the quiet of his life resonated as he thought about how Dean had slept peacefully while the Impala rumbled around him.

He climbed out of the car, heading into the woods to take a leak, then returned to dig his toothbrush and a bottle of water from the trunk. Dean joined him, doing the same, and they used the rest of the water to splash their faces, ridding their eyes of the last remnants of sleep. They moved in synchronization, each knowing exactly what needed to happen, pausing to allow the other space. It was a harmony that Sam realized had been lacking back in Lawrence.

It hadn't been needed there.

"You find Argo on the map?" Dean asked finally.

"Yeah – good thing it's June," Sam told him. "In the winter, we'd have to have chains on our tires."

Dean looked horrified. Sam shrugged and clapped him on the shoulder. They pulled back out onto the road – Dean at the wheel – and got to the other side of Denver before grabbing some breakfast. Sam used that opportunity to call Virgil to tell him how close they were.

"Glad to hear it," Virgil replied. Sam put the call on speaker, though Dean simply listened. "Remember I told you another guy went missing a couple days back?"

"You find him?"

"Drowned," Virgil replied. "Rate this is going, pretty sure someone's gonna be stoned next. And not the kind that gives you the munchies."

"You put an alarm on Brenna's place?" Sam asked.

"He tried," came a new voice, faded, as if hearing Virgil's conversation through the handset.

Sam looked over at Dean when he sensed his brother stiffen. Dean was pale, his left hand white-knuckling the steering wheel. Sam took a breath: his brother might bluff a good game, but there was no denying that reaction to hearing Brenna's voice again for the first time in nearly four years.

"Hey Brenna," Sam greeted. He heard a rustle and then when Brenna spoke again, he could tell he'd been placed on speaker as well.

"Hey, Sam," she replied. "Glad you could make it."

"I take it the alarm system was a no-go?"

"Well," Brenna sighed. "Not much use. Someone broke in before he could get up here. They destroyed all my plants - which was pretty much all I had worth something."

"Holy shit," Sam exclaimed, forgetting for a moment that Dean was beside him. "Aislinn wasn't there, right? You guys are okay?"

He felt Dean's eyes on him, but ignored him for the moment.

"She's up at Virge's Aunt's. I took all her baby stuff there, along with anything else that matters to me," Brenna said. "I got a place to stay. Just pissed me off is all. Narrow-minded freaks."

"How about the charms?"

"I'm charming as hell," Brenna teased. "Trying to make Virge wear one, too."

"Not much for necklaces," Virgil groused.

"Get over it," Sam told him. "Or get a tattoo."

Brenna laughed and Sam heard Dean shift restlessly next to him.

"How far out are you?" Virgil asked.

"About…ninety minutes?" Sam guessed. "Give or take. Where do you want to meet?"

"The fire station," Virgil told him. "You can't miss it. It's the only one in town and it's right next to the gold mine."

"'Kay. See you then."

Sam hung up the phone, then sat very still. The car rumbled around him, tires eating up the road, but Sam swore he could hear Dean's heartbeat.

"Baby things?" Dean asked, his voice rough.

Sam swallowed. "They have a kid," he said.

Dean nodded. "Might've mentioned that before," he said, glancing sideways at Sam. "Y'know, when you were reminding me how I used to love her."

"I'm sorry."

Dean shook his head, accelerating enough to roughly press Sam against the seat.

"I am sorry, Dean," Sam tried again. "If it helps…they're not together."

Dean shot him a look. "Why would that help?"

"I just meant…it's not like you'd be breaking up a family."

"Oh, real nice, Sam."

"Well, what do you want me to say?" Sam protested helplessly.

"Anything else you forget to share? Or are you waiting for me to be directly in the cross hairs before more bombs drop?"

Sam frowned. "Hey, it wasn't like I had a transcript of the damn call," he snapped. "You asked about the hunt; I told you about the hunt."

"Doesn't matter," Dean muttered, his voice tight, a nameless emotion trembling just beneath the surface. "We're going up there to help a friend, smoke this witch, then we're gone."

Sam watched out the window as the mountains drew close. "And then what?"

"What do you mean?" Dean frowned, his left hand tightening on the steering wheel.

"And then you're gone, aren't you?" Sam voiced the worry that had been nagging him since Dean announced he was healthy enough to hunt.

"I don't know, Sam," Dean replied on a heavy exhale.

Sam felt tension burble up inside him, hot and fast. "I mean, it's not like we have to find old Yellow Eyes anymore…your soul's not on the line…no angels or demons after our asses anymore…. Everything that kept us together is done."

Dean frowned at him. "How about just being brothers?"

Sam slouched in his seat, feeling that anxious need to move shimmy through his system.

"That's always been enough for me, man," Dean replied.

"Yeah, well…," Sam muttered.

"Let's get through this hunt first, yeah?"

"Fine," Sam replied, pulling out the map and watching for the exit to Argo.

The Impala struggled slightly at the sharp embankments; Dean leaned toward the wheel as if somehow the position of his body would continue to propel the car forward. Sam split his attention between the road, the map, and the amazing vistas spread out before him. It wasn't as if he'd never seen mountains; traversing the country offered him more chances than most.

He'd just not seen anything except the rolling hills and limestone cliffs of Lawrence for months.

He'd almost forgotten how amazing it could be to see a sea of open plains one day and craggy mountains the next. Sam filled his eyes, noting the silver turn of the Aspen leaves as the cluster of trees snaked through the expanse of evergreen, the unexpected waterfall from the mountain side, and the dance of morning light tossing random shadows through the valleys.

"There," he called out when he saw the exit. "Argo."

Dean took the exit without a word and slowed as he drove down the main drag of town.

It seemed like a town caught in a strange balance between yesterday and tomorrow. The buildings all had false fronts like a classic western town, but Sam saw an internet café next to what had clearly once been - and probably still was - a saloon. A free-standing church, the white-washed building complete with a steeple and bell, was situated next to a grocery store as tiny as the diner next to it. And he saw a library connected to a gas station.

There was a sense of humanity barely holding nature at bay. The mountain reached in between the buildings with formidable arms, embracing the town as if it intended to pull it close and crush it as soon as the people turned their backs. Age and weather sagged the rooftops, clouding the windows, and turned the edges of the brick-and-asphalt street to dust.

Sam saw people dressed in a blend of Wranglers and Carhartts climbing from pick-up trucks and SUVs parked at a slant in front of the buildings, heading inside hardware stores and restaurants, mindful of only what they had to focus on, unaware of what seemingly lurked at the edges of their perception.

Dean followed the brown landmark signs toward the Argo Mine: Oldest Working Gold Mine in America. Virgil had been right; it wasn't hard to find the fire station. It was the most modern building in the entire town, though it looked as if it had been built back in the '80's.

Dean parked along the side of the road, turned off the car, and took a breath.

"Don't see anyone outside," Sam commented.

"Let's get this over with," Dean muttered, climbing out of the car.

He took a few moments to stretch, kicking feeling back into his legs. Sam waited for him, recognizing Dean's stall tactics for what they were. He moved around to the front of the car, starting for the door of the station, trusting that Dean would follow him. As he pushed the door open, Sam was surprised to realize he was nervous as well.

That vanished, though, the moment he saw Virgil – Red Sox baseball hat at home on his bald head, blue eyes bright as ever, grin wide and welcoming – head toward him.

"Hey, Sinatra," Sam greeted with a grin of his own, using the boys' nickname for the paramedic.

"Hey, yourself, Winchester!" Virgil greeted, taking Sam's outstretched hand and pulling Sam close for a fierce hug, clapping him on the back. He stepped back, his eyes sweeping Sam's face. "Man, it's good to see you. Been a long time."

Sam nodded. "Almost four years," he recounted.

Virgil tipped his chin up at Sam's nearly shoulder-length hair. "Still a hair farmer, I see," he teased.

Sam pushed at his shoulder. "Someone's gotta make up for you," he replied.

Virgil's laugh was almost drowned out by a female voice bellowing Sam's name. Sam looked up to see Brenna hurrying toward him, her reddish-blonde hair tied back away from her face, her odd gold eyes tired but happy. She grinned, her nose wrinkling as she did, and reached up to hug him. Sam had to bend – she barely came to his shoulders – but he hugged her tightly, thinking somehow to brace her for what came next.

"Your trip okay?" she asked.

Sam nodded. "Yeah, we just traded drivers," he said.

Brenna frowned. "You hunting with someone again?"

Sam took a breath, hearing the door open behind him. He nodded once, then rotated slightly, moving away from the door. Dean stepped inside, looking both uncertain and formidable.

For a moment, Sam saw him as others might: squared shoulders, slight build, an unconscious lean to the right, thin pink scars around his left eye and along his jaw, his right hand tucked into his jacket pocket.

Dean glanced once at Sam, then his eyes slid to take in Virgil and Brenna, landing and staying on Brenna's face. Sam saw the three of them pale as if on cue. He caught his lip between his teeth at Brenna's sharp inhale.

"How the hell…?" Virgil tried, but his voice seemed to dry up and evaporate as Dean continued to watch them. "Wait, are you real? I mean, you're really here?"

Dean nodded.

"Not like…a ghost?"

Dean's lips quirked slightly at the question, but he shook his head. Sam wondered if he was ever going to say anything – if he could say anything. His eyes seemed to take over his face, the green standing out against the unnatural paleness of his skin.

Virgil dragged a hand over his mouth, looking from Sam to Dean, then shifted and stared at Brenna. She hadn't moved; it didn't appear as though she were even breathing.

"Hey, Brenna." Dean's voice had a husky quality to it that Sam had only heard a few other times, the most recent being when they were saying goodbye to Bobby.

Brenna tilted her head to the side, her chin jutting out slightly. Sam saw her curling her fingers into fists. A muscle in her jaw bounced.

"How did you do it?" Her voice was venom.

Dean flinched as if she'd struck him. "Do what?"

Brenna clenched and unclenched her fingers. "Lie to me. I always know…," she took a step forward, "...I always know. I mourned you and…you…you lied to me."

Sam watched as Dean squared his shoulders; he saw a tremor run through his brother and he braced himself. Whatever happened next was not going to be pretty. He glanced at Virgil, but the paramedic had yet to look away from Brenna.

"I didn't lie to you."

She took another step forward and Sam felt the room inhale. Before any of them could stop her, she reached out and with the full force of her small body, cracked Dean across the cheek with the flat of her hand. Sam flinched as Dean's head snapped back to the right, the fluorescent lights catching on his scars. He straightened his head, his cheek turning read from the impact.

"I didn't lie," he repeated calmly, and Sam saw the soft reflection of the soul light – as he'd come to think of it – begin to shine from Dean's eyes.

"Hell? A death sentence? Trading your soul for Sam's life?" Brenna all-but shouted, her body trembling. "That mean anything to you? Because it damn sure meant something to me!"

Dean's voice dropped an octave and he lowered his chin. "I didn't lie."

Brenna's eyes danced over his face. "You standing here says different."

"Find out for yourself," Dean told her.

"Dean, wait are you—" Sam started to caution, suddenly afraid of how much truth Brenna might see.

But before he could get the rest of his warning out, Brenna reached out once more and placed a hand on Dean's face, her fingers on the scar that ran along his jaw.

Sam had experienced Brenna's druid touch before – felt the way it seemed to peel him open and set on display everything he fought so hard to keep hidden. Dean had told him it was the same for him. The abilities that fell to her because of her druid origins stripped away the masks that people so carefully constructed showing her the truth and in Dean's case, exposed layers of scars that went deeper than anything she could touch on the outside.

Dean flinched, his body shuddering once as Brenna made contact. Sam heard her gasp and utter a brief, pained cry, and then she stepped back. It hadn't been long enough to see much, he reasoned, but whatever she saw turned her eyes wide – pupils larger than normal, gold nearly gone – and caused her to pale even more than before.

Dean and Brenna stepped away from each other, Dean searching for a wall to lean against, Brenna reaching a hand out for support. Virgil instinctively took it, offering her the anchor he'd always been.

"What did you see?" Sam and Virgil asked in unison.

Brenna looked at Dean, her eyes slowly returning to normal, the devastated expression there mirroring Dean's own.

"You didn't lie," she whispered.

"I didn't lie," Dean repeated and Sam winced at the pain he heard lacing those words.

"Brenna?" Virgil turned her to face him, forcing her to look away from Dean. "Tell me."

"He died," she said and Sam heard her draw a breath as she found balance once more. "He died and was in Hell, just like he said would happen."

Virgil looked back at Dean. "But you're back."

Dean nodded, finally glancing at Sam. "I'm back."

"How?" Virgil demanded.

Dean licked his lips and Sam could practically hear the cacophony of events crashing against each other as they fought to be the one Dean selected as his reason for standing there today.

"Would you believe…angels?" Sam interjected, rescuing Dean from having to explain.

Virgil's eyebrows bounced up, disappearing beneath the brim of his hat. "Angels."

Dean nodded, his voice having apparently vacated once more.

"Angels are...are real," Virgil said, releasing Brenna's hand and facing Dean once more, his eyes bouncing between the brothers.

Sam nodded. "And demons."

"Angels and demons." Virgil took off his hat, scratched his forehead and then pulled the hat down low once more. "Dan Brown would be shittin' bricks."

Before Sam could react to the fact that Virgil had read Dan Brown's books, Brenna was stepping forward again. After the last assault, Sam found himself tensing, preparing to stop her from striking Dean again.

"You were…rescued?" Brenna asked, clearly trying to fit the pieces of the puzzle together.

Dean's lifted his chin, his eyes low. "You said I had a purpose," he reminded her. "Hell didn't take it from me."

Brenna tipped her head back, as if remembering. "And did you find out what it was?"

"Sort of. Part of it, anyway." Dean exchanged a look with Sam.

Sam heard Virgil take a breath. "And you didn't think it might have been a good idea to mention that…oh, I don't know…your brother was back from the dead when we talked, Sam?"

Sam glanced at Virgil, his brows pulled together. "It slipped my mind," he replied with strained remorse.

Virgil turned away, his fingers laced behind his neck. "I can't fuckin' believe this," he muttered. "I mean, sure, there's weird shit out there, but dead is dead…that's the whole reason I do what I do…to stop that from happening…and here he is, just hey, I'm alive…healthy as can be—"

"Virge," Brenna took his arm, turning him to face her and cutting off his litany. "It's okay."

"How is this even in the vicinity of okay?" Virgil demanded, waving an arm at Dean.

"We got a lot to figure out – we don't know the whole story," she reminded him. "But right now, we need to focus on this," she circled her hand around them.

"Just leave, Bren," Virgil pleaded in a tired, I'm going to say this until you finally listen to me voice. "Just get Aislinn and go to some other town, somewhere no one knows you."

"And then what happens if they follow me? Find me? What happens the next time someone finds out about me? What happens if they come after Aislinn? No," she shook her head. "This stops here." She looked over at Sam, then slid her eyes to Dean, then back to Virgil. "And they're here to help."

Virgil hung his head for a moment, then straightened and faced the brothers. Sam moved closer to Dean. Without realizing it, they mirrored each other in a parade rest stance, waiting to see what was said next.

"I'm sorry," Virgil said.

Sam blinked. That was the last thing he'd expected to hear.

"I know you're here to help us," he continued, "but you have to understand that there's just so much weird I can take in one day."

Sam nodded, seeing Dean follow suit.

"So…what happens now?" Sam asked.

Virgil opened his mouth, but before he could reply, the alarm sounded, causing all four to jump in surprise. A voice over the loudspeaker called EMTs to their buses, belting out an address. Without another word, Virgil turned and headed through a door marked Authorized Personnel Only, leaving Brenna, Dean, and Sam standing in the reception area.

"You saw more than Hell, didn't you?" Dean asked her softly, surprising Sam.

Brenna nodded. "Yes. It didn't make much sense, but…yes."

Dean looked down. "Thought so." He raised his eyes once more, and rocked Sam back on his heels when he said, "I saw what you saw."

Brenna looked away. "How?"

As Sam watched, Dean looked at the scar marring the palm of his right hand.

"Don't know," he whispered. "But I think we're going to find out."


Continued in Part Two: Chapter 12.

a/n
: Hope the initial reunion worked for you. There's some serious warming up that needs to happen, but in pure Winchester style, they don't really have time for all of that, what with witches on their tail. Hope you enjoy what's to come!

Note: There is a small town called Argo, CO, located roughly an hour outside of Denver along I-70, and it does have a gold mine, but that's where the intentional similarities end. Everything else is the magic of fiction.

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