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Taking my Swingline Stapler and leaving...


Okay, I need to vent, peeps. Work-related. Thus the cut because... GRRR.

I go to contractor status next week. I have been looking forward to that with a mixture of relief, excitement, and trepidation. Mo Chuisle starts part-time daycare next week as well, and will be home with me on Tuesdays and Thursday. Her Papa is also off on Tuesdays, so he gets some daddy-daughter bonding time. This is really going to be a big change in our little house and I've never really done well with change. Even the good kind.

I think that's why I've been fighting a headache for the past week -- today being one of those days where my jaw is so tight I feel like I got punched in the face. And my neck... ugh. So, anyway, I'm trying the zen breathing to work through this week... The hubs had to go to the doc's today about his Crohn's meds to try to figure that out since the last one gave him pancreatitus severe enough he was pretty much 24-hours away from his kidneys shutting down. And Thursday we take Mo Chuisle to Children's Mercy for her tests.

Just setting the stage a bit, I guess. Anyway, my boss calls me today for a standing weekly project call. I have been working on this consultative sales simulation for Sprint since March. It's a project our little company has never done before, and we were awarded the business because of my relationship with the client -- I managed an eLearning project for him that completed in February and he wanted to continue to work with us. I also managed to get $80K more out of him when we realized the project was out of scope.

My boss today wants and explanation why some rewrites are taking the time that they're taking. Rather than throw the initial writer under the bus -- because his drafts were horrid -- I said that we were working to make them "quality" and explained the process. She responded like she understood. We talked about my transition to contractor, and she said that she was thinking of taking me off the project after Thanksgiving and putting another PM on it to complete it.

Fair enough -- it's her perrogative, I suppose. All contractors have to deal with that. I just personally think it's silly to take someone who has been working on the project since March and has built up a great relationship with the client just to save on having to pay that person. Because that's why she'd take me off -- so that she could use someone who is on salary. But whatever. I always knew I'd have to scramble to find work with this situation.

But then, 30 minutes after we hang up, she sends an email to me and my subject matter expert (who has been helping me rewrite the five very poorly written drafts) that she wants all scenarios ready for her to review by Friday. There are five. I just sent her the 3rd today. It took us five weeks to do those three. She wants the remaining two by FRIDAY??

All I could think was that she wanted them done this week while I was salary -- pushing me into another 60+ hour week -- so that she didn't have to pay me for it next week. I replied, as calmly as possible that we could get her the 4th, but the 5th couldn't come until next week. She demanded to know why. Wanted to know what I was spending my time on. Seriously?

I have been busting my ass on this project. Working late nights, working weekends. I have gotten her more business from this client than she realizes. And all she's done is say "it's not fast enough." The client is thrilled. What's the deal?! So, I sent her my time sheets so that she could see what I've been spending my time on.

She just called and said she realized I was going to be out on Thursday, but she couldn't imagine the tests taking all day. And that I needed to make these scripts a priority. I just tightly responded, "fine."

If my jaw was tight before, you could bounce a quarter off of it now. Where the hell is my aspirin?

I tell you, if I had ANYWHERE else to go -- or more than one other job lined up -- I would tell her thanks for opportunity to learn what I have, good luck with completing this project, buh-bye.

But I can't do that. Not to the client, not to my coworkers, not to my family, not even to her. Especially not to my family. It's bill-paying day. That ought to put my priorities into perspective, huh?
 

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jennygeee
Oct. 28th, 2008 08:51 pm (UTC)
OMG some people – there’s just no pleasing them. You poor sweetheart, you’ve been working you’re a** off on the project, have done all the hard work and then she said she was thinking of taking you off and putting another PM on it to complete it??!! It makes me so cross – it would serve her right if you did find another job. Does she actually realise that you are the reason the company was awarded the business in the first place? I feel so angry for you.

I hope that whatever you have to do on Thursday goes ok.

Poor hubs, having pancreatitis is no fun at all! I had acute pancreatitis a couple of years ago and was in hospital for 2 weeks, still have problems now. Hope the doctor manages to sort his medication out.

Love and hugs

Jenny
gaelicspirit
Oct. 31st, 2008 02:35 pm (UTC)
I'm gonna post a thing about Children's Mercy in a bit, but I wanted to first reply to these comments with a HUGE thank you.

I'm not gonna make my deadline today. I am currently waiting on my subject matter expert to get her comments back to me and I can't go forward without them. And her little boy is home today because daycare is closed. And my boss just called to ask when she would be able to see something. ARGH!

The thing is? I'm happy today. Maybe it's the post-Thursday bliss, but she's gonna get what I can give her and that's the best I can do.

Oh, Jen, I'm soooo sorry to hear that you had pancreatitis! The hubs was in so much pain that I was a bit panicky for him. They took him off the Crohn's meds and within a day the pain began to ease. Such a relief. They started him on a new medicine system -- alternating days with different meds (not confusing at all)... I think he's getting a bit discouraged, but he's got a great heart and a good head on his shoulders. I just need to stay strong for him. :)

Thanks for supporting me. It means more than you could possibly know.

*HUGS YOU TIGHT*
lovinjackson
Oct. 28th, 2008 10:31 pm (UTC)
You need to get your priorities straight???? Is she for real? I wanna smack your boss in the mouth! But maybe its just my violent nature this week. Seriously? What shes asking is just ridiculous and NOTHING is more important than your daughters health ... or your husbands for that matter and on that same note ... yours. You cant keep going like this. Its ridiculous. What are you spending your time on? lmao thats a laugh. What the fuck does she think your spending your time on. I know I'm not there and i dont know her but all this alone? I dont like her!
*hugs* I hope everything works out ... just think ... Jensen in a few weeks ;)

gaelicspirit
Oct. 31st, 2008 02:36 pm (UTC)
*chants Jensen in a few weeks to maintain calm*

Thanks for having my back, girl. I always know I can count on you. I am going to type my fingers bloody to get stuff done today, but... well, l guess I can only do my best, yeah?

We'll talk soon.

PS
I hope you got the epi downloaded!!!
charis_kalos
Oct. 28th, 2008 11:16 pm (UTC)
All I could think was that she wanted them done this week while I was salary -- pushing me into another 60+ hour week -- so that she didn't have to pay me for it next week.

That sounds likely - and it's crap. I'm so sorry.

*sending your boss nasty vibes and you a long-distance hug*
gaelicspirit
Oct. 31st, 2008 02:37 pm (UTC)
Thank you for the hug, lady. I really needed it this week. I am so blessed to have the support that this sight offers me through you guys.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
kultiras
Oct. 28th, 2008 11:47 pm (UTC)
*hugs tightly*

I am so so sorry that you have to deal with her on top of everything else that you're worried about.

I totally want to say quit and work somewhere else, work for someone who gets it, but I know things aren't that simple.

*hugs* I'm here if you need to vent some more.
gaelicspirit
Oct. 31st, 2008 02:38 pm (UTC)
I may take you up on the further venting... as soon as I can get this part of the work done. :)

I really wish it were that easy -- y'know, quit and work for someone who gets it. And actually, before Mo Chuisle was born, it would have been. But now that she's with us, I have to put her first. Which means working here until now.

What a freakin' vicious cycle, yeah?

Thanks for coming by. *HUGS*
saberivojo
Oct. 28th, 2008 11:53 pm (UTC)
Wow, she really sounds like a bitch. The only thing I can say is that I have been in your shoes (sort of) and all I think of when I get that pissed is that I still have a pay check. That becomes my mantra.

And despite what bitch boss says, you obviously do have your priorities straight. Do what you can and then tell her she can pay you as a consultant next week.

*kicks bitch boss repeatedly with pointy toed boots*
gaelicspirit
Oct. 31st, 2008 02:40 pm (UTC)
You're so dead-on right. I still have a paycheck. I can still pay bills. I can buy a bottle of wine to cope with the work I have to do to get said paycheck. :)

Thanks for the pointy-toed boot kick. It's appreciated. :)
(Anonymous)
Oct. 29th, 2008 01:01 am (UTC)
Work Stress
Hey Gaelic,

Wow, I can't believe what a rough time of it you have been having lately. Worrying about your family is enough without having to deal with crap at work too. As you say, it sounds like your company is trying to save themselves some money by screwing you over. What they should be thinking about is that the client may go elsewhere if you, their main contact and project manager, is taken off the job. Perhaps you could offer to do some work independently for that client??...... start your own business maybe??!!

I love being a physiotherapist, but hate that over here in North America healthcare all comes down to money - how much insurance the client has dictates how much treatment they get, even if they need more, unless they want to pay out of pocket. I also look at how much the company I work for is raking in from my hard work and I only get to see a tiny percentage of that. I don't think I would ever have the balls to go off and set up my own clinic - too much risk involved financially - but it would be nice to be my own boss.

But, if I won the lottery ever, I would give it all up to have a farm - breeding horses and rare livestock and not worrying about making a profit from it!!

Anyway, enough about me. At the end of the day, you have to prioritise. Family first, you are entitled to time off to be with your daughter and husband when they need you. Pay the bills to keep a roof over your head. But, remember you work for more reasons than just paying the bills - fulfillment, self-worth, and to have spare cash to treat yourself with! So, put up with what you can, speak out about what you can't, and tell yourself that there are always other jobs out there - but they are like men, the good ones don't come along until you least expect it, and usually after you have given up looking!!

Ok, that is my blurb! I was always better at listening and nodding in all the right places that actually giving advice. But, sometimes it helps just to know you have people on your side. Perhaps we could all have a quiet word in your bosses ear for you!!!!

Take care, oh and go get a massagefor all that tension you are carrying around with you!!
Stella
gaelicspirit
Oct. 31st, 2008 02:44 pm (UTC)
Re: Work Stress
Stella, sweety, you are just the thing I need to help me pause and take a deep breath.

You'd run a horse farm? Really? That's awesome! Too bad we don't live closer -- we could run it together! I showed Western Pleasure for a few years back in college and road barrels for a bit as well. My husband and I have a love of horse racing... more about the animal than the betting.

I think that would be a fantastic way to spend your lottery winnings. Should you, y'know, win the lottery. :)

You're so right, too, that it helps to have people on my side. Having these replies to this post had me going, Gaelic, take it easy. You can do this. It's gonna be alright. :)

Take care of you and I hope we talk again soon!!

*heads off to schedule a massage*
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gaelicspirit
Oct. 31st, 2008 02:46 pm (UTC)
It's become a general consensus, I've found, among my co-workers that my boss has no clear idea the level of effort half her requests take, and when we pull out all the stops to get it done, she simply expects the same or better each time. So, it's partly our fault, I suppose, but how do you say "no" to the person who holds your livlihood in her hands?? Ack.

I'm gonna post something soon about the hospital experience. I bet the bloody mouth was scary, though. Blood coming from my baby would freak me out -- she had a bloody nose once during one of her fever episodes and I couldn't get it to stop. I was okay until it finally DID stop and then I started shaking like a leaf. Silly, huh?

You are a multitasking queen. Your babbles made perfect sense to me. :)

Take care of you, girl.
may7fic
Oct. 29th, 2008 02:38 am (UTC)
Oh, ugh. I have soooo much sympathy for you. Work for me is insane these days and is not going to settle down for many months. New ownership, new boss, future new address with a quadrupling of staff. I feel like I'm juggling hot coals while standing on ice. But, with 17 yrs of service, I'm hoping that'll count for something.

My time served is why I'm not yet considering bailing... my old boss could have an opening where he is now but, as much uncertainty as there is now, at least I'm with a good team of co-workers plus have (hopefully) that bit of seniority. Time will tell.

Your situation? That's infuriating. Nothing I hate more than when someone who hasn't a freaking clue about what you do *dares* to judge the time it takes!

Deep breaths are your answer... perhaps the client will request you back and your boss can eat crow. There's got to be some justice like that down the line ;)

Take care and hang in there! {{hugs}}
gaelicspirit
Oct. 31st, 2008 02:48 pm (UTC)
First, LOVE your avi. That just... that walk speaks PURPOSE. Sigh.

Second, girl, you are seriously going through it! New ownership, new boss... I mean, after 17 years there it's like you're starting over! I'm sending you light.

And I would love for you to be right. For her to pull me off the project to save some bank and have the client say, I'll work with you again, but only if I can have her as PM. Wouldn't that be just... perfect?! *cackles*

Won't happen, but that doesn't mean it wouldn't be perfect. *grin*
may7fic
Nov. 5th, 2008 07:09 am (UTC)
Won't happen, but that doesn't mean it wouldn't be perfect. *grin*

You never know, sometimes good things do happen to those who wait. In the mean time, hold your head up and know that you are a better person than that twit of a boss ;)
looselyspeaking
Oct. 29th, 2008 08:55 am (UTC)
Hey Gaelic, sorry to hear about your work troubles. This woman obviously doesn't have a life outside of her job, pity her indeed that she cannot understand the need to go to hospital for tests, without the pressure of work intruding. That is a real low one.

Hope that things go well for Hubs and Mo. Sending over the waves lots of positive thoughts to you and yours.

Take care, Jane :)

gaelicspirit
Oct. 31st, 2008 02:50 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Jane!! I'm gonna post something about the hospital visit soon. I jsut wanted to say a BIG thank you to all who supported me with this issue. As it's still on-going and I needed to re-read the support to get through today. :)

Oh, guess what? Our little Kansas City Wizards MLS team made the playoffs and have the best record in MLS right now. Hee. We never thought that would happen! We're going to see them on Saturday (and probably freeze our tails off). I hope Josh Wolff makes a goal and risks another yellow card by whipping off that cumbersom jersey. *bad Gaelic*
looselyspeaking
Oct. 31st, 2008 08:21 pm (UTC)
Oh go your guys, that's absolutely grand, good luck for the playoffs.

Hey, shirts, they are always best off (check my avi, heehe) and a necessary lift for any gal watching her footie. Do your players do the 'shirt swap thing' it's common place in the uk for the cup games and Frank Lamps is such a delicious tart, any given opportunity and his shirt is off. No complaints here.

We have Sunderland tomorrow and it's turned pretty nippy here, so my scarf, hat and gloves will be out. Lets hope its a win for us both.

Jane :)
thatgirlsix
Oct. 29th, 2008 08:12 pm (UTC)
Hang in there, beautiful! Just remember that all of this could lead to opportunities that you might not have otherwise found.

And yeah, she's being ridiculous beyond measure. Some people just don't get it.

I'll be thinking of you and your Girl. *smish*

ETA: Shall I do a stupid dance for you? I hear that's always a good way to forget other stupidity. Boy is good with the stupid dances. I'll send him right on over.

Edited at 2008-10-29 08:14 pm (UTC)
gaelicspirit
Oct. 31st, 2008 02:52 pm (UTC)
I would LOVE a stupid dance. *sits quietly to watch*

Today, I got a call at 9am. No "how did it go yesterday" no "you guys doing okay"... it was "How much have you gotten done on the script."

Le Sigh.

I'm gonna get done what I can get done and do my best at it, but yeah. A stupid dance might help. :)

Thanks for being you. *HUGS*
ilaria84
Oct. 30th, 2008 06:27 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear that-she's really.........well you know what I mean!I know a lot of people who have similiar problems and that's sucks,it's not fair,especially because,as you said,you worked a lot on this project!:(
gaelicspirit
Oct. 31st, 2008 02:52 pm (UTC)
Oh, your avi made me tear up. I actually felt that hug. :)

I hope that my hard work pays off in the end and the client tells my boss that she lost something special with me. Would be justice in my mind. Won't happen, but it would be justice.

Thanks for your kind words.
ilaria84
Oct. 31st, 2008 03:11 pm (UTC)
aww you're welcome dear!It 's not much,I know, but I send you a very big hug!hope you can have the justice you deserve!:)
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