*I need wine*
I’ve been doing my best to not be spoiled for these last three episodes—previews and titles only. But the title for this epi alone had me spinning. See, in Sunday school I learned about the Baptist’s view of the Rapture. I was told how believers should be excited for the second coming of Christ. I was told that when He returned, believers would simply be taken to Heaven without having to experience death.
Thing is, I wasn’t all that excited about that. All I could picture was the mayhem and fear: drivers suddenly disappearing from cars, pilots from planes, you get the idea. The chaos left behind for those not taken up… it terrified me. Even if I was one of the ‘chosen’ there would be people left behind to continue to fight the battle and what they would be left with… *shudders*
Then, I thought of a poem by W.B. Yeats called “The Second Coming.” In that poem there is the following line: The best lack all conviction, while the worst are full of passionate intensity. I’ve found myself thinking about that often throughout my life and it practically echoed in my head and around me as I watched this episode. Knowing that this episode was called The Rapture left me with a butterflies-in-the-stomach feeling. I trust Kripke… trust him to totally turn my world sideways.
First? May I rant? Does anyone else fine the CW’s commercial COMPLETELY ANNOYING?! Good GOD! It’s almost worth waiting until AFTER the show just so I can skip through the 475 previews for GossipFreakinGirl… *takes breath* Sorry. I worked right up until viewing and then right after viewing, too, so I’m a little revved up.
While Kripke’s “Rapture” didn’t fall in line with my Sunday school “Rapture,” we still saw someone taken up. Someone good, who had been chosen, who didn’t ‘deserve’ to have anything ‘bad’ happen to him. But, y’know, I think ‘deserve’ and ‘fair’ fall into the same category in life: Useless Words That People Use To Justify Actions. Good things happen to bad people and bad things happen to good people. It’s just life, right?
I have to say that I’ve never really given Misha Collins much thought. Castiel was a character that simply added to the ambience of the show and complemented Dean’s journey this season. But as a performer, Misha impressed the hell out of me in this episode. We actually got to see him be two different characters. Nicely done, that.
The opening scene after the “Then” was one of the prettiest, most peaceful things we’ve seen all season. I mean, I even found my tired muscles relaxing as we panned up Dean’s legs, past the tackle box, to his hands loosely holding the fishing pole. He looks as caught off guard as I was, and then takes a breath and sinks into the moment. It was gorgeous.
Then Dean starts as he catch’s Castiel’s figure off to the side of the pier out of the corner of his eyes. It’s then that he knows he’s dreaming, though I'd actually had a smidgen of hope that he got a second of real peace. Cas says they have to talk some place more private. Dean’s all “we’re in my head.”
“Someone could be listening.”
Um… freaky, man. My dreams? Are totally wacked out. Again, ask Terry. I don’t want anyone “listening” to that. Seriously.
Cas gives Dean a paper and tells him to meet him there. Now. Dean jerks awake with the sound of a car horn. We see the twin lights of the brother’s flashlights as they explore the location Cas gave Dean. It is completely destroyed—Sam even comments that it looks like a bomb went off. There’s a symbol on the wall that Dean recognized from when Anna used it. Dean’s like, “there was a fight here.”
I couldn’t help myself. Despite the seriousness of the moment, I went straight to Princess Bride and Prince Humperdink’s, “There was… a great battle…” recount of the swordfight between the Dread Pirate Roberts and Inigo. *ahem* Sorry.
Sam says with awe that it was an angel fight, and that’s when Dean sees Cas. Or so he thinks. Turns out it isn’t Cas—it’s Jimmy. They take Jimmy back to… the motel? I’m guessing? And the way he devours a cheeseburger and fries totally puts Dean to shame.
“You’re going to give me angina.” BWAH! That guy kills me. Slowly. With each blink of his eyes… *sighs*
And—totally random, but did it look like Sam was wearing eyemake-up in this scene? Just me? Okay then.
It was here that I really marveled at the difference in Misha’s voice, eyes, face, mannerisms as Jimmy. He was almost literally a different person. And honestly? I kinda liked him better as Cas. I mean as Jimmy’s story played out over the course of the episode, I felt for the guy, and I thought a lot about his plight, but as a character… I really dig Cas. Maybe it’s the Batman-like voice. *shrug*
“Having an angel inside of you is like being chained to a comet.” I’m going to have to remember that one…
He says that he remembers he’s Jimmy Novak from Pontiac, IL. And this is where my brain starts tickling—like that scratch inside your ear that drives you crazy but you just can’t reach. Dean died in New Harmony, IN. He was buried in Pontiac, IL. Where Jimmy Novak is from. I looked them up on Mapquest. They are 4 hours apart. So, for some reason that I haven’t been able to figure out, Sam (or Sam and Bobby, perhaps) drove Dean’s mangled body 245 miles to bury him in a wooden box in the middle of the woods.
Right where an angel had selected a vessel. Because, presumably, the whole selection, faith-testing, wife-thinks-I’m-batshit-crazy period of time happened prior to Dean’s resurrection because it said “One Year Ago” and Dean hasn’t yet been back for a year. Right?
I’ll have to chew on that for a bit.
We get a good sense of the man Jimmy Novak was. Good husband, good father, God-fearing man. Prayed before meals, fell asleep in front of the TV (watching a reality “I encountered an angel” type of religious program). Just your average guy.
Until the TV goes wonky ala Poltergeist and he falls to his knees, holding his ears from pain and has a seizure when he first hears the angel’s voice. Flash back to now and the brothers are arguing about what to do with Jimmy.
And, like with Adam, I could see both sides of the argument. Neither brother stood out as Really Right. Dean wanted to let Jimmy go back to his family. Of course he did. Because the job used to be about helping people, returning them to their family. Saving people before hunting things. That’s how Dean is BUILT, man. Vengeance and righteous anger was only justified when his family was in danger. Other than that, he just wants to stay off the grid and do the right thing.
Sam, however, thinks that Jimmy is their only lead – that perhaps the man doesn’t know what he knows.
Dean asks, incensed, “You want to go Guantanamo on the guy?”
Sam, with this adorable little flip of his head to get that long hair out of his eyes, points out that if they have questions for Jimmy, you can bet the demons will, too. This argument sways Dean. But… Jimmy doesn’t agree. He’s done. He just wants to go home to his wife and daughter. Dean can sympathize. You can see it on his face. He hurts that he has to agree with Sam when his brother points out that Jimmy will just put his family in danger.
Sam steps in front of the door—using his size to stop Jimmy. And now Jimmy is a “prisoner.” However, while Dean sleeps, Sam sneaks out to get a demon blood fix by the pop machine and Jimmy runs away. Whoops.
Random observation… I have no idea if it means anything, but Sam and Jimmy snuck out at 4:34am and they were staying in room 9. Why I noticed those numbers I have no idea. You would think I watch a lot of LOST or something, which I don’t.
ANYWAY. It’s now light out (so, they wasted a bit of time for some reason) and Dean is casually brushing his teeth while Sam is frantically packing and trying to get his brother to move it already. Dean chuckles, giving Sam a hard time about letting Jimmy get away. He’s actually glad that Jimmy is free, it seems. I mean, he doesn’t want bad things to happen to Jimmy, but I think that he doesn’t really take seriously the threat to Jimmy’s life at first.
Dean wants so badly for his life to be back to his version of normal—back to what he knows and can somewhat control—that he’s happy if someone else gets to turn his back on the epic Angels vs Demons war and go home.
Sam, though, has left any yearning for normal behind. I mean, he crossed that line so long ago the line is a dot to him. It’s all about the war for him now. He seems to have stopped seeing people as people. They are pawns, chess pieces, meat to him. He sees the liability and the assets where Dean sees the humanity.
I can’t help but think that is more a by-product of his power addiction than a true change in Sam, himself. Addiction does scary things to you. I’ve not experienced it first hand, but I’ve watched loved ones spiral downward from it and have been helpless to stop their fall. I’ve watched them change from a sister to a stranger. I’ve watched the person I knew die in their eyes and be replaced by a need. To me, the only thing more heartbreaking, is watching someone you love actually die.
We get another Jimmy Flashback to when his faith is being tested by Castiel. Hand in a boiling pot of water tested, to be exact. Yipe! Poor Amelia. I mean, even the most God-fearing believer is still human and would have a hard time accepting that their husband/wife/sister/brother/father/mothe
The brothers (I’m trying hard not to call them “the boys”) are driving toward Pontiac, silent, each wrapped in their own cocoon of thought when Anna suddenly appears in the backseat, startling Dean so badly he swerves the car.
Hee.
After an indignant “You ever think about calling ahead?!” he looks back at her.
“You look terrific.”
Oh. Yum. Seriously? I know the writers will never give the boys real peace, or a home with a wife, or even an honest-to-God (no pun intended) relationship, but I would love Dean to have some more lovin’. He’s just so damn sexy when he looks at women. Even angel women.
Anna notices something different about Sam—and Sam, the geek, actually says that he cut his hair… what. ever.—but she can’t put her finger on it. She gives them hell for losing Jimmy and says that Cas got his angelic hide painfully yanked back up to Heaven and was probably getting a thrashing good and proper. She also worries that Jimmy is already dead.
And that’s what flips the switch in Dean. I mean, he was going there anyway, but his heart wasn’t in it. It wasn’t enough that his suddenly all-go-no-quit brother thought that Jimmy was safer with them; he had to hear it from a higher power. Which made me sad. Because it used to be enough that Sam said so.
Back to Flashback Jimmy and we see Amelia has had enough and says that if Jimmy doesn’t get help, she’s taking Claire and leaving. And who could blame her, really? Jimmy heads outside and he can hear Cas, accepting the offer/request to play the part of the vessel. There’s a blinding white light, and then Claire steps out onto the porch calling for her Dad.
Misha turns and he’s once more Castiel. Stance, face, eyes… voice. “I’m not your father.” Man, talking about screwing a kid up for life.
Now!Jimmy is talking to Amelia, repentant, saying he was crazy, but he’s better now and nothing is more important to him than she and Claire. He wants to come home. But Amelia needs to start small. They decide to have dinner and Jimmy gets to hug his daughter and he just breathes her in. I knew that feeling. Sometimes when I’ve been away from Mo Chuisle just for a day or two, I can’t get enough of feeling her in my arms. Smelling her hair. It had been a year for him.
Meanwhile, Sam is somewhere—gas station? Another motel? I couldn’t tell and haven’t watched it again yet—and he’s leaving Ruby another voicemail pretty much freaking out he’s jonesing for a demon blood fix so bad.
Back at the Novak’s house, a family friend—Robert? Roger?—comes to the door because he thought he saw Jimmy “wander in.” What, was he watching out the front window ala Gladys Cravitz? It’s all, “how ya been, man! Been a long time” until Amelia leaves to get them beer and the neighbor’s eyes go demon black. Jimmy starts to beat the hell out of him and Amelia freaks out and tries to stop him (of course, sigh).
Somehow, Jimmy manages to get everyone into what looks like a pantry and tries to keep Amelia and Claire in there with a line of salt, but Amelia truly thinks he’s full-on Jack Torrance crazy. There is a scramble and next thing you know, Demon A has Claire by the throat and Demon B jumps Jimmy, showing her eyes to Amelia who FINALLY realizes that Jimmy WASN’T crazy and they are all in Very Big Trouble.
Which, is right when Dean steps in, slicing Demon A’s throat and freeing Claire while Sam tries to use the Force on Demon B, barking to Dean to get the family out of there. Sam tries, but he’s weak, and he wavers, and Demon B smirks with a, “Can’t get it up, can you, Sam?”
Dean’s all, “Yeah, but I can.” And Demon B runs away in a black cloud before Dean can kill it. Sam’s woozy and Dean grabs his arm and gets him out of there, his face tight and his wheels turning. Somewhere else—parking garage it looks like—Sam is harsh about Jimmy having to leave his family. Forever.
Jimmy's a vessel—even if he doesn’t know anything, the demons will want to see what makes him tick. Dean lets Sam do most of the talking, his face set. Sam’s almost vibrating with intensity about Jimmy doing what he says. Dean just looks… grim. And hurt. Not physically hurt, but… how much more of this do we have to take hurt.
Sam says that there is no getting out and no going home.
“Don’t sugar coat it for him, Sam.”
“I’m just telling him the truth, Dean. Someone has to.”
So much anger. Fueled by need. A need he hasn’t stopped long enough to think about the price he pays.
I think back to Route 666 and Dean confessing that he told Cassie The Secret and the discussion about no attachments, no real friends that weren’t hunters… nothing that could anchor them in the world, really. Which, while dealing with Jimmy’s sacrifice, had to be playing havoc in Dean’s subconscious as he tried to find a place to put the knowledge of Adam.
Because John had attachments: Kate and Adam. He let himself get close to them, and let himself find solace in them and thought he was keeping them safe by keeping them “away” from the truth… and they both died. Horribly.
It just makes me so sad for their future. And, yes, I know they’re not real. But for one hour a week, they are to me.
Dean watches Jimmy say goodbye to his wife and daughter and the look that crosses his face is like a kick to the gut. Sam hotwires a car for them and then… they leave. I was like WTF… you’re leaving?! You’re not going to watch the girls drive away, make sure they get away safely? WHAT. ARE. YOU. THINKING?!
And, sure enough, the second they’re out of sight, DemonAmelia reveals herself and smacks poor Claire across the face. That kid is going to be screwed up for life, man.
Jimmy is asleep in the backseat and Dean and Sam talk softly about Sam’s mojo. Dean is worried. Worried about Sam—because he almost fainted—and worried about what they need to do in a fight. He’s not trying to pick a fight, but he’s scared.
“You used to be strong enough to kill Alistair and now you can’t kill stunt demon #3?”
*giggle*
Before they can get too far down that road, DemonAmelia calls Sam’s phone and Jimmy’s all “Oh my God.”
So, they head to the meet sight and Jimmy asks for a minute alone. Sam’s all “you know this is a trap” and Dean tosses back a cocky “that’s why I have a plan.”
And… I’m still trying to figure out if his plan actually failed, or if he knew that Cas was going to come back… because he looked pretty confident in that moment. But then again… he’s Dean.
Jimmy has a bit of a meltdown yelling to Cas that he PROMISED Jimmy’s family would be protected. I know we were supposed to really feel for Jimmy in that moment… but I really didn’t. I can’t explain why. Maybe because it’s a totally typical human reaction to stamp our feet and shake our fists and demand to know WHY a bad thing happened to us. Because it’s not FAIR… But by this time, I’d already given up on fair.
Jimmy enters the warehouse and begs DemonAmelia to free his family. Claire is tied up across the room, head down. DemonAmelia tells him he should have come alone.
“Like I didn’t think you’d bring Heckle and Jekyll.”
The guys are hauled in by some random demons. They look rather roughed up, which makes me think maybe Dean’s plan did go sideways… but at the same time, they both look like they’re waiting for something. Sam’s all, you got us, let them go.
“Oh, Sam. It’s easy to act chivalrous when your Wonder Girl powers aren’t working.”
DemonAmelia decrees that everyone dies and points a gun at Sam. Dean looks panicky for one heartbeat, and then DemonAmelia turns, unexpectedly, and shoots Jimmy. Dean’s face pales and he literally looks like all of the air was sucked from his lungs.
DemonAmelia tells random demon #1 to kill the girl and then… Claire. Kicks. Ass. Or, rather, Cas inside Claire. She angel-fries the demon coming to kill her and Sam and Dean take advantage of the distraction to take on their respective demon captors. Dean is getting the crap beat out of him and CasClaire goes to him first, angel-frying the demon that has Dean on the ground.
We look over at Sam, though, and his struggle with the female demon, and I actually said out loud, “Oh, Sammy, no.” My husband was playing some soccer game on his computer and he looked over at my sympathetically. Unable to control his lust (we’re back to Sam, now), he dives on the demon’s bloody neck and drinks deeply, coming up with a bloody mouth like some kind of vampire.
Dean is staring at him with a mixture of horror, betrayal, fear, sadness, disgust, and sorrow. They all swim across his face as he locks eyes with his baby brother. It's similar to the expression he had when he saw Sam take on Samhain in the masoleum. Just a holyshitwhatamIgonnadonow expression. Sam raises his hand—seemingly directed at Dean—and Dean flinches away, scared and confused. It actually took me a minute to realize that Sam was aiming for DemonAmelia behind Dean. He takes out that demon, leaving Amelia intact, and Dean helps Amelia up, dividing his shocked attention between Sam and Amelia.
Meanwhile, Jimmy is dying. CasClaire kneels next to him, and it’s in this moment that I truly felt for Jimmy. Misha did painful dying very well. I felt my gut clench for him—and that’s usually reserved for Dean. CasClaire is going to let Jimmy die and go to Heaven, to his eternal reward, his peace. But Jimmy begs that Cas take him instead of his daughter. Cas explains that it’s forever. He’ll never die, he’ll never age.
Dean, Amelia, and Sam (his chin still stained with blood) are watching, and you can see that they’re each absorbing different things from the moment. Jimmy begs again that Cas take him and leave Claire to her childhood.
“As you wish.”
And then Jimmy is gone. His soul taking a backseat to the greater good. His sacrifice complete. Cas is back, voice and all, and Claire, poor kid, is a mess. Amelia goes to her daughter and Cas walks between the brothers, looking back at Jimmy’s family once with a soft look of sorrow on his face.
Dean stops him, asking what he'd wanted to tell him. But the moment is gone, apparently. Whatever the Cas of before had wanted to say didn't matter to the Cas of now.
“I learned my lesson while I was away, Dean. I serve Heaven, I don’t serve man. And I certainly don’t serve you.”
Umm… what?
Dean’s face was a mix of WTF and Come Again?
I’m not sure I get that yet. I mean, I get that Cas was apparently schooled when he got yanked up to Heaven. I get that he was probably lectured about what he’d done helping Dean save Sam from Lilith by using the prophet. I get that he was probably reprimanded about getting too close to Dean, about caring too much about how this Mission was affecting Dean the person.
But CASTIEL was the one who said that they had to do what Dean said. What’s changed? Is he just pissed because he got in trouble? I hope we find out, because I’m worried that a layer has just been exposed in the overall Dean arc that we won’t get to the bottom of until next season. And I hate waiting.
Back in the Impala, Sam wants Dean to react to what he saw. Pull the car over. Yell, take a swing. Something Dean-like. Dean… he’s not mad. He’s disappointed, but mostly? He’s tired.
The best lack all conviction while the worst are full of passionate intensity.
Dean has always tried to do the Right Thing. But he’s tired. Of sacrifice—not just his own, but his brother's. He’s tired of losing. He’s tired of being a chess piece in a game that has always been too big for him. For any human. He’s tired of secrets and lies and trying to wait it out and trying not to care when he cares too much. His conviction is wavering and his faith is thin and he's gonna need both to survive.
Sam is revved up and vibrating with the need to stop Lilith, to make a difference in this war, to be the one that saves the world from Armageddon so that his destiny will be worth something. So that the demon blood dropped in his mouth when he was too young to know about it can be used for good and not evil. So that Dean doesn’t have to be the one to fight the good fight alone. So that he can have just one more rush of power, just one more hit. His intensity is palpable and scary.
Dean’s calm inside the car is sad and suspicious. Bobby calls and we see him walk out of his panic room, away from a cot with a neatly folded blanket at the foot, telling the boys they better haul ass to his place. Once there, he takes them down into the basement, tells Sam to head into the panic room, he wants to show them something. Sam’s all, “what’s this big demon problem?”
Dean and Bobby stand in the doorway, looking at him with determination and sadness in their eyes. It's totally obvious in that moment that Bobby's call had been plotted, that Dean had called him for help somewhere between Cas walking away and climbing back into the car. They close the door and lock it, Sam pounding on the other side. Oh. My. God.
I usually don’t go into previews in this ramble, but what they showed us had my stomach tightening up into a serious knot. And… it’s said “SOON.” What does SOON mean?? Does anyone know? When is the next episode?
I thought it was next week… but the SOON made me think we were taking yet another break.
Well, whenever it is, I hope to see you back because I’m so far down this rabbit hole I’m going to need spelunking gear to get myself out. Need ya’ll there with me.
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Arafel, if you’re reading, I will try to check out TVGuide.com and Tina’s blog, but I don’t think the site likes me very much, because I could never get past page 4 of the comments from last week. Just wanted you to know.
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I can’t help but think that is more a by-product of his power addiction than a true change in Sam, himself. Addiction does scary things to you.
I'm not sure that Sam hasn't always been this way to some extent. Remember in Salvation how he was so ready to sacrifice himself for the cause? He was a hair away from shooting John in Devil's Trap, Dean's pleading with him not to probably what swayed him. Like his father, Sam's been a "big picture" kind of guy since Jessica died, IMO, ready to do anything for their cause, their mission. This was just intensified by the pain and helplessness of losing Dean to Hell. He was bent on revenge before he started drinking the demon blood.
I know we were supposed to really feel for Jimmy in that moment… but I really didn’t. I can’t explain why. ...But by this time, I’d already given up on fair.
I'll tell you what my reaction was...that's not even scriptural. When did anyone in the Bible ever get to set conditions on service to God? It's all or nothing, baby. That's the sacrifice. "Let the dead bury their own dead..." anyone?
And I'm a complete poetry ignoramus, but I love "Second Coming", the lines you quoted and "the centre cannot hold".
*laugh* I thought the same thing... He SO didn't look like a Jimmy.
I'm not sure that Sam hasn't always been this way to some extent...
This is a really good point. One I hadn't really thought clearly about last night. I guess I am/was trying to explain away his actions and think "there's a way he'll come out of this" but it could very well be that this is what their life has done to him.
I'm not sure which way makes me sadder.
When did anyone in the Bible ever get to set conditions on service to God?
Another good point. That's why the choice to follow God is so hard for many (most) people.
"Mere anarchy is loosed upon the world."
Oy vey. This is gonna be a bumpy ride...
Thank you for coming by. You always manage to help me look at things differently.
And you're like, Dude, chill. It's gonna happen when it happens.
Thanks! *grin*
Although this? It’s almost worth waiting until AFTER the show just so I can skip through the 475 previews for GossipFreakinGirl… NO KIDDING! It was enough to make me wonder which show I was watching, SPN or GG! *face-palm*
Anyhow, gonna read your reaction over again, as between this episode and the freakin' PREVIEWS, I feel like I've been hit by a bus. *whimpers and cringes*
I know, right?? Hang in there! If you find words, lemme have 'em. I'm curious. :)
Soon is next week and the week after... I know this for a fact. I will be off to watch the finale with my bestest SPN buddy in Livonia... so I've looked into it.
And just one other quick comment -- I was on to what a brillian actor Misha is after I saw vids of his first con appearance -- he is NOTHING like Cas...
Ok -- more than one comment -- thank you for the tiny squee over Anna -- I freakin' loved that scene -- I thought Julie was looking particularly attractive too... I also liked that she sensed the demon blood in Sam but didn't rat him out -- I think she could have... and the Impala saw a lot of people thru the backseat this ep! LOL
And really, last blather -- Dean's face when Cas blew him off? OMG. Devastating. He finally thought he had a friend, someone in his corner, and it took him until TMATEOTB to really accept that Cas was those things -- and then to have it all ripped away...
I think that in part it is to de-stabilize Dean to make him more willing to swear his loyalty to the lord -- that scene in the preview just smacked of another crossroads deal to me -- only this time to God, not a demon...
Thanks so much for this ---
Dean's face when Cas blew him off? OMG. Devastating. He finally thought he had a friend, someone in his corner, and it took him until TMATEOTB to really accept that Cas was those things -- and then to have it all ripped away.
EXACTLY!! Oh, man. That hurt.
See you next week?
I liked the backstory, was really impressed with Misha :-)
I'm not religious and this ep made me glad I'm not..cause heaven and angels *shrugs* doesn't give you much faith in them. No offence meant!
When Sam went to suck that demon's blood i had my hand over my mouth and although I wasn't spoiled I was expecting something like that..it still hurt, and I was screaming internally.
The previews for the last two eps..left me shaking..LOL! Have to hang on to my icon ;-)
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None taken at all. Even those who ARE religious have their faith shaken sometimes, so I am with you here.
When Sam went to suck that demon's blood i had my hand over my mouth and although I wasn't spoiled I was expecting something like that..it still hurt, and I was screaming internally.
That was just... man. How far he's gone is just... yeah. I was much more coherent last night! *laugh*
Thank you for coming by. I always love to see your take.
I'm curious to see the banners/icons you'll do for this one. There were some from Jump the Shark that were simply breathtaking.
All of Dean of course. *wink*
I could go on here, and normally would, but I really must sleep....to get up 4 hours from now and do this day all over again. *sigh*
Your reviews can be so thought provoking, as if watching the show doesn't do that enough already.....but I love reading them. Pointing out things I didn't notice or forgot about and so many things that I find myself agreeing with you on (like the friggin' gossip girl commercials! GOOD GOD! Shut up already CW!) If only we could watch the last 2 episodes together...........how AWESOME that would be! Watching it with my husband....as enduring as it is that he likes the show too....it's just not the same!
The "soon" scenes for the next 2 episodes have me so worried. I'm with you...spoiler free. So I'm clueless other than the previews we were given after the show today, but I'm fearing a cliffy that may keep us hanging over the edge for the summer.
Hmmmm.....well, on the other hand, a cliffy is what drove all the obsession to fanfic over the summer between season 1 and season 2, so maybe this is a good thing? Ha ha! I need SOMETHING to look forward to these days.
You poor thing. I got your email, too. Don't worry, chica. I'm not going anywhere. :) I'm tenacious like that.
And YES it would be made of awesome if we could watch the last two together. Why are KS and CA so far apart?!
He's caught between finding a place of respect and Trust with Cas that, as you stated, he may feel is gone for him now and then the place of disappointment and DIStrust he now has with Sam when he used to trust him completely, without question......now he truly has NO.ONE.
*sniff* This makes me so, so sad. But you're right. The cliffie from last season kept us all holding on with hope even when Hell is hopeless.
I know one thing, though. After I write the ramble for the finale? I won't be able to talk about S4 until like... July.
Sam, with this adorable little flip of his head to get that long hair out of his eyes, points out that if they have questions for Jimmy, you can bet the demons will, too.
I noticed that as well, and i thought that was Jared and not Sam. LOL Cuz a few of the gag reels Jared so love to flip his hair..
He seems to have stopped seeing people as people. They are pawns, chess pieces, meat to him. He sees the liability and the assets where Dean sees the humanity.
I can’t help but think that is more a by-product of his power addiction than a true change in Sam, himself.
I thought that this development is more to Sam himself, and maybe a tiny bit influenced by the demon blood. I always thought that after Jess, and then John, and then Dean died, he kinda harden his heart towards any sentimentality, and that maybe Ruby kinda screwed with his head as well...never did like that demon, and next week's eppy do look encouraging..LOL
Love Misha as well, and i do like this week's eppy, a background story to Castiel's vessel....and Castiel's possession of Claire is creepy...little girls again!!!! *shudders*
LAUGH! You're probably right. I think it's cute when a facet of their real personalities or quirks shines through their performances. I mean sometimes I get so wrapped up in who Dean and Sam are that I almost forget there's just some regular guy in there bringing that character to life.
I thought that this development is more to Sam himself, and maybe a tiny bit influenced by the demon blood.
chemm80 said something similar above and you both have made me think about how I look at that. I think that's gonna take more processing for me because for me, by looking at it as a by-product of the demon blood addiction, I see there being hope for him to "come back" but if it's more a facet of HIM... well, I'm not sure. *thinking*
Thanks so much for coming by and commenting! It's fun to hear what you think.
My life is but a weaving
Between my Lord and me.
I cannot choose the colors
He worketh steadily.
Oftimes he weaveth sorrow,
And I in foolish pride
Forget He sees the upper
And I, the underside.
Not till the loom is silent
And the shuttles cease to fly
Shall God unroll the canvas
And explain the reason why.
The dark threads are as needful
In the Weaver's skillful hand
As the threads of gold and silver
In the pattern He has planned.
I just mean that I've learned to wait and see what transpires in God's good time.
Jensen, of course, acted his socks off in this episode. I was so heart broken for him in the car before Bobby's call. He seemed almost at the end of his tether. *pets him*
The fishing thing was awesome and had me VERY confused. Dean doesn't seem the fishing type, but he looked really comfy and cozy there. Loved the lake. We live on a small lake and love it, but have to say, it's not often that peaceful. (Did you know that geese don't sleep at night? They mutter all night until something upsets them and then it's cacophony!) It was a beautiful thing, tho.
I, too, loved the difference in character that Misha was able to put forth in this ep. It was quite amazing. I'd seen several interviews with him and Jensen and Jared in Australia after the con there. His animation and huge smile were amazing. Speaks volumes to his acting ability. I've enjoyed his character up until now, but wasn't head over heals or anything. Still not head over heals, but have gained a greater appreciation.
When I saw the blood on the neck of Sam's demon, I knew what he was going to do and my heart sank. :( *shakes head*
They showed us previews from the final two eps last night. It's what they meant about "soon". I'd be looking forward to the summer break if I actually thought I'd really get a break from this emotional roller coaster. There won't really be a break for me. It'll just be a kind of 'vibrating hold' until it returns in the fall.
Sorry I'm all rambly and uncoordinated here. Been up a loooonnnnnggggg time.
Really enjoyed your review and agreed with you tons.
I hadn't heard that poem before -- but I really like it. I collect quotes and copied/pasted that one into my collection. Thank you for that!
Dean doesn't seem the fishing type, but he looked really comfy and cozy there.
Y'know I had that fleeting thought as well, but then I think that also shows us the journey Dean has taken. Where before peace for him might be driving 80 mph on a deserted road with AC/DC screaming Back in Black, now that just makes him think of the person he decided to become for the sake of others... and now, peace is... stillness. And what is more still for a GUY'S guy than... fishing? *shrug*
Just my take.
Thank you for being rambly. :) Makes me feel like I'm among my own kind.
See you next week?
(And yes, I'm skirting one of my moods. It's rained for 5 days and i'm going to hurt someone if the sun doesn't come out.) Preparing myself for a huge disappointment (you know what) so I can really wallow in it.
This however had me on the floor, intentional (as I suspect) or not, in reference to Mark's sympathetic look. : "Unable to control his lust (we’re back to Sam, now),"
Snorkle.
Okay, so kick that mood to the curb, woman. Things are bound to improve when you least expect it. Plus? You got me! What more could a girl ask for, yeah? *wink*
Now... go watch the epi so that you can see the beauty that which is Dean and be good and proper prepared for the next two weeks.
*gulp*
As always I loved your Stream of Conscience ep review, you always seem to give me insight into the episode that I might otherwise have missed or not come to without lots of thinky-thoughts!!!
As someone who appreciates music, I thought you might find this interesting... I tend to watch a lot of TV with the CC on because I just can't seem to make out what their saying half the time!!! Its also interesting because you often "hear" things that either weren't actually said in the televised episode, or that are background noises too faint to normally understand.
Well in last night's episode, in the opening scene when Dean was Dream-fishing, my captioning indicated that CCR's "Green River" was (supposed to be?) playing.
This also happens on occasion, the captioning will show music that's not playing, which I think maybe means they *tried* to obtain rites to the music, but for some reason it didn't happen, or maybe they just changed their minds.
For whatever reason, I still found it interesting, and being the music lover you are I thought you too might appreciate it.
-j
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Wow! I didn't have any music when I watched -- just utter silence in that scene. And Green River would have been cool. I wonder why they didn't play that... they've played CCR before. Hmmm.
Thanks so much for telling me!
I laughed out loud at your opening two sentences! I felt a bit underwhelmed at most of the ep until about the last 15 minutes, and then, yeah OMGOMGOMG!...but instead of wine-whiskey, please!
I was raised in a loosely, and I mean LOOSELY Catholic household, but I feel exactly the same as you regarding The Rapture.
No quote I have read better reflects my feelings about this season than the Yeats quote you used-again, thank you, thank you, thank you, for finding a way to put my thoughts into words.
"I have to say that I’ve never really given Misha Collins much thought. Castiel was a character that simply added to the ambience of the show and complemented Dean’s journey this season. But as a performer, Misha impressed the hell out of me in this episode. We actually got to see him be two different characters. Nicely done, that."
I was trying to evaluate MC's performance in this one. I am a very harsh critic when it comes to acting-only two actors have made me cry in the last ten years-Russel Crowe and Jensen Ackles. In fact, the reason I love Jensen so much is that he can bring a lump to my throat with a downward glance. And usually when I am underwhelmed with an episode of this show, it's because I greedily felt that I didn't get enough Jensen/Dean to feed the need. I LOVE the chemistry between Jensen and MC as much as I love the chemistry between him and JP-and while MC and JP on-screen by themselves do not affect me in the same way as when they are on there with Jensen-there is no denying that MC is a very strong actor and a GREAT addition to our show. The guys need rest after four years of being on-screen in almost every scene of every episode and I am glad that they found someone who could give this to them. I am with you, though-He IS Castiel, not Jimmy-VERY, VERY nice performance by him in this one. I better post. I think this is getting long...
LOVED IT! Especially when he closed his eyes to soak in the peace....GUH! I knew it was a dream then, though...
“Having an angel inside of you is like being chained to a comet.” I’m going to have to remember that one…"
Ya think?, Foreshadowing much, maybe?...
"So, for some reason that I haven’t been able to figure out, Sam (or Sam and Bobby, perhaps) drove Dean’s mangled body 245 miles to bury him in a wooden box in the middle of the woods.
Right where an angel had selected a vessel. Because, presumably, the whole selection, faith-testing, wife-thinks-I’m-batshit-crazy period of time happened prior to Dean’s resurrection because it said “One Year Ago” and Dean hasn’t yet been back for a year. Right?
I’ll have to chew on that for a bit."
Really interesting and I hadn't realized this.
"Flash back to now and the brothers are arguing about what to do with Jimmy...That’s how Dean is BUILT, man. Vengeance and righteous anger was only justified when his family was in danger. Other than that, he just wants to stay off the grid and do the right thing...Dean can sympathize. You can see it on his face. He hurts that he has to agree with Sam when his brother points out that Jimmy will just put his family in danger."
I LOVED this scene especially because we get to see Dean who will always be about "Saving People" first, and yet, he listens and weighs what his brother has to say, realizing that it's not that simple anymore. Listening and weighing what a loved one has to say to you, Sam-see, that's how it's done...
"After an indignant 'You ever think about calling ahead?!' he looks back at her.
'You look terrific.'
Oh. Yum. Seriously? I know the writers will never give the boys real peace, or a home with a wife, or even an honest-to-God (no pun intended) relationship, but I would love Dean to have some more lovin’. He’s just so damn sexy when he looks at women. Even angel wome
n."
I LOVE Dean Winchester SO MUCH!!
I could keep doing this for your entire post, so let me just finish this up. Sam's addiction is a bad, bad thing and I, too, know of it from the loved one's perspective. I have been at a place where I jumped and worried every time the phone rang that it was going to be the police asking me to come down and identify my brother's body. And I remember feeling like this for weeks/months on end. I thought the best part of this ep was from when Dean finally saw whith his own eyes and realized what Sam has been doing to "power up". Everything, EVERYTHING, you said, mirrored my thoughts. I can't help it. I just identify so closely with DEAN on this journey that these two brothers are on.
"Jimmy's a vessel—even if he doesn’t know anything, the demons will want to see what makes him tick. Dean lets Sam do most of the talking, his face set. Sam’s almost vibrating with intensity about Jimmy doing what he says. Dean just looks… grim. And hurt. Not physically hurt, but… how much more of this do we have to take hurt.
Sam says that there is no getting out and no going home.
'Don’t sugar coat it for him, Sam.'
'I’m just telling him the truth, Dean. Someone has to.'
So much anger. Fueled by need. A need he hasn’t stopped long enough to think about the price he pays."
I scrolled back to Yeat's quote after reading this, and of course, this:
"Back in the Impala, Sam wants Dean to react to what he saw. Pull the car over. Yell, take a swing. Something Dean-like. Dean… he’s not mad. He’s disappointed, but mostly? He’s tired.
'The best lack all conviction while the worst are full of passionate intensity.' "
Like I said, I can't help but identify more with Dean. The previews were absolutely unbelievable. My heart feels heavy this morning, though...*sigh*...This show... Thanks again, Gaelic. Your words, as ever, move me in such a way that I again feel so lucky and happy to have found such a kndred spirit in this life. *hugs you*
"Cas walks between the brothers, looking back at Jimmy’s family once with a soft look of sorrow on his face.
Dean stops him, asking what he'd wanted to tell him. But the moment is gone, apparently. Whatever the Cas of before had wanted to say didn't matter to the Cas of now.
'I learned my lesson while I was away, Dean. I serve Heaven, I don’t serve man. And I certainly don’t serve you.'
Umm… what?
Dean’s face was a mix of WTF and Come Again?
I’m not sure I get that yet. I mean, I get that Cas was apparently schooled when he got yanked up to Heaven. I get that he was probably lectured about what he’d done helping Dean save Sam from Lilith by using the prophet. I get that he was probably reprimanded about getting too close to Dean, about caring too much about how this Mission was affecting Dean the person.
But CASTIEL was the one who said that they had to do what Dean said. What’s changed? Is he just pissed because he got in trouble? I hope we find out, because I’m worried that a layer has just been exposed in the overall Dean arc that we won’t get to the bottom of until next season. And I hate waiting."
This. Was Cas just play acting in case someone was "watching"-someone who can even see into Dean's dreams?! I'm pretty sure Cas WAS reprimanded severely, but by who? Bobby is the only left who Dean can trust implicitly now. Please don't let anything happen to Bobby, Kripke...*Arafel worrying*...
That thing with the change in location from when Dean died to where he was buried has bothered me all season. I am trying to coerce anyone I know that goes to cons to ask that question (no luck yet). I'm sure it's just one of those random things that doesn't matter... but it BUGS me. *laugh*
I feel I don't have the time nor the ability to write a blog of my own, I think I am capable of a meaningful comment now and then...
I totally and completely agree with this! I also think you COULD write your own blog because you really dive deep into these epis, and your comments always ALWAYS make me go "huh... I hadn't looked at it that way... COOL!"
Thank you so much for your compliments about my write-ups, but mostly I love that we are kindred spirits. :) Hee. And OMG share the Dean love... sigh...
I haven't gotten over to Tina's blog yet because I get frustrated when Technology doesn't work for me right when I want it to, so I'll wait until naptime tomorrow... but I hear you in the "trying to figure out the right thing to say that won't upset anyone..."
That is exhausting and why I like that people feel safe expressing their opinions here -- regardless if they reflect my opinion or not.
Oh, and last thing -- I hear you on the Bobby worry. Terry said something last week about Dean's life now being a series of trap doors, and I think that analogy works so well. You're right - Bobby is the ONLY one Dean has left that he can trust. And I am so, so worried that the way things are going, The Powers That Be are going to take everyone away from him until he's truly, utterly alone just to see if he can handle it and Do The Job... ugh. It actually makes my stomach tighten to think about it...
PS
I studied Yeats when I was at school in Ireland. I even got to go to the home he built for his wife, George. Yes, her name was George. This is an interesting man, ya'll.
Typically, I'm more of a Dean-girl, but I just about died when they locked Sam up at the end. I should have seen it coming because that's type of ending I like to write and watch/read, but all I could say was "omg, omg, omg". And after watching Sam slurp demon-blood (Seriously, from his hand??! Wouldn't drinking it directly from the flask be easier?), all I could think was that he really, honestly thought he could control it. It's sad, but true. I think all of us, to some degree or another, think we can control our vices. It's starts out small and before we know it, it's taken over. You are so right about addiction; it's awful watching a loved one die right in front of you; their personality--everything that made them THEM.
Well, thanks for listening to my mini-rant and for letting me takie up some of your blog. But more than anything I just wanted to let you know how much I enjoy reading your blurbs every week! :)
Typically, I'm more of a Dean-girl, but I just about died when they locked Sam up at the end...
Girl, I'm so with you there. Hence the "omg omg omg" at the beginning. EEEK!
Seriously, from his hand??! Wouldn't drinking it directly from the flask be easier
I thought the same thing! I was like "eww! Dude!"
I had this whole thing play in my head in the commercial after that scene. *ahem*
DIRECTOR: Jared, take a big swig from the flask.
JARED: *does it*
DIRECTOR: Okay, yeah, it just looks like you're taking a nip... could be whiskey. We need people to know you're drinking blood. Let's see... okay, pour it in your hand...
JARED: I could lick it up...
DIRECTOR: Try that.
JARED: *does it*
DIRECTOR: Dude! That's totally disgusting! Do it again!
JARED: Tastes like crap.
DIRECTOR: Well... it's blood...
JARED: *does it*
DIRECTOR: Yes! That's it! Complete squicked me out! We're keeping it!
*Gaelic laughs at self*
Thanks for coming by -- hope to see you next week!
Edited at 2009-05-02 01:04 pm (UTC)
“There’s a symbol on the wall that Dean recognized from when Anna used it.” You see, Gaelic, that’s why I need you, I knew that the sign was familiar but I wouldn’t think where from!
“It just makes me so sad for their future. And, yes, I know they’re not real. But for one hour a week, they are to me.” Oh but they are real for much longer than that Gaelic! They are part of our lives whether we like it or not (and I for one like it!).
I suppose I’m lucky really because I don’t get all the adverts that you have to put up with! So even though I have to download the episode at about 4am on Fridays I do, at least, watch the show straight through, because I know how much the breaks would annoy me!
Thanks for this as always as we near the end of this amazing season.
You ARE lucky that you don't have to deal with the commercials. I think next week I might just tape it and watch it after it airs... 'course that means I'll be up even later writing this because I canNOT got to sleep until it's done. But... those are the sacrifices we make, yeah? *grin*
Mo Chuisle is sitting here and says "hi!" She also says "more French Sticks" (French Toast Sticks) so I'd better go. Thank you again for reading and taking time to comment. I love to hear what you think!
The opening dream sequence of Dean fishing struck me as odd because Dean seems to want to be with people - not to be alone - so I don't see his sitting on the dock of the bay as something to dream about. Unless, he is so tired, so broken, that being alone is what he desires because at least then, no one can hurt him. Oh my poor Dean :(
I just loved your description of Dean's face when he looked at Sam after he drank the demon's blood. His face showed all of those things and he definitely flinched with fear when Sam put up his hand in Dean's direction to dispel the demon behind him. And that car scene - wow. Sam reminded me of a scared kid who just got caught at something and just wants the whole thing over with. He's ready with his excuses, he wants to get yelled at because it means his parent (Dean) still loves him enough to interact with him, punish him and move on. Instead, Dean is quiet, tired, sad and looks defeated - and I think that should have scared Sam more. Unfortunately, Bobby calls and the car scene ends before we can really see Sam's reaction.
That last scene when Bobby and Dean locked Sam in the demon-proof panic room was chilling - the look on their faces, the sound of their voices. Wow. I thought it was interesting that Sam was yelling "guys" and didn't call Dean by name - like he couldn't believe his brother was doing this to him. :(
Like you, the "SOON" gave me a knot in my stomach. I have this overwhelming feeling of dread as we hurl headlong into the last two episodes of the season. These guys are breaking my heart already and I believe the worst is yet to come. :(
On a side note, I had a wonderful visit with my sisters. As a result, I'm way behind in my reading and probably won't catch up until after the end of the current TV season. It's going to be a long, long summer...
Catch ya' later,
Irish
Sam reminded me of a scared kid who just got caught at something and just wants the whole thing over with.
I know, right? Like he was relieved that Dean knew and just wanted him to yell at him and then they could move on...
I thought it was interesting that Sam was yelling "guys" and didn't call Dean by name - like he couldn't believe his brother was doing this to him.
Yeah, I thought about that, too. I was thinking that Sam put two and two together really fast as the lock clicked and realized that the reason Dean was so calm was because he had already called Bobby, had already had a plan, that he couldn't have done this by himself, and that Dean and Bobby were (at least in that moment) a united front.
I had a wonderful visit with my sisters. As a result, I'm way behind in my reading and probably won't catch up until after the end of the current TV season.
YAY! For the sister visit. :) I am taking Mo Chuisle back to IN this summer to spend some time with one of my sisters and I really hope to be able to say the same thing. And as far as the reading is concerned, if the others you read are anything like me, they'll dance a jig whenever they get a review from you. :)
Take care of you!
*grin*
I didn't get to watch Jump the Shark properly, and was somewhat confused by the idea of another brother and the fact that it was just for one episode. I didn't want there to be another brother, but it seams as though they missed the boat a bit with that episode and possible implications it could have had for the boys (or brothers, whatever, they are both younger than me, so I get to call them boys!!) and their impressions ands ideals about John. Anyway, I am getting off topic.
"I am not your father" Did anyone else think of Darth Vader when he said that!!
And the preview, oh my. When do we get to see all that? And how is this season going to end. The closer we get to the end of the season, the more I think it is not going to have a happy ending.
Stella
I did wonder why the Ghouls last week bled Sam out rather than eating him alive (as they did Adam) and now it makes sense. Bleeding out left Sam with less demon blood and less power. Obviously needing a top up, which was highly gross and made me want to throw up. Dean's expression, hell, its all just upside down and inside out and I hate it. I want them back as they were, this is getting scary.
So Sam's going cold demon, hmm and it looks like all hell has let loose next week. I wanna watch but I don't LOL.
Great review, Gaelic and wine would have been delicious had I not watched it a 8 am this morning! Maybe I'll have one tonight, if, if, we manage to tuck home three points against our lovely neighbours Fulham this afternoon. Hope hubs enjoys the game, I know they are chasing points to get into Europe. Should be a good game.
Jane :)
I want them back as they were, this is getting scary.
Truer words have never been said. *gulps*
The hubs works this weekend, so Sunday night will be filled with soccer games... :)
Thanks so much for coming by! I've missed you.
Gaelic
Secondly: I am so sorry I haven't been around to read your reviews lately. I tried to stay clear of reviews and discussions as I started my new story based on what I think may happen in the finale. I even bailed on spoilers. Yeah. I know. Hard to believe. But this episode got back at me. How mean and twisted of the show to amend the double trailer! I couldn't prevent watching, not if they dangle "the carrot" so low. I know, I have no discipline. *sighs*
Reading your take of the episode grounded me and for that I am absolutely thankful. The epi was sorta reduced in meaning/impact by the following spoiler... at least that was the effect on me.
The trailer had me reeling with possible implications for storyline twists and of course for the brothers and their relationship. I can't tell you how much Dean's words hurt me. Not because he said them but because of the hurt it must have cost him to actually say that. I mean, using his father's hateful words and repeating them to Sam. How bad must things have got to prompt Dean to say this? He must be utterly despaired resorting to that. It's about as low as Dean would sink...
Actually, I am NOT looking forward to the next episodes. They are bound to be gut- and heart-wrenching and they are gonna leave me behind as a mess. For 4 freaking months.
But anyway. Back to the epi.
Sam going all Count Samula (oh, god. so not a nice view and I screamed at the screen: "Oh no! You're so not gonna do that, Sam! Don't! Do.. aw crap") the female demon made me think of the guy from Metamorphosis. That guy had the same blood smear around his mouth. I knew that epi had some foreshadowing quality. Still, it doesn't make it any easier to see Sam do this.
And then Dean flinching, god, I think my heart broke there and then... all "I got your back" died, their last remaining trust in each other gone... so sad.
Misha was terrific in this episode altho Jimmy came across as the (now not so holy) tax accountant that he truly is. Heh. And yeah, his Cas voice is so much sexier.
Jared and Jensen really leave me breathless week after week. You know something? I started watching episodes of this season without sound. Just listen to music while they run. And boy, that only hightens the gorgeousness of Jensen's acting. You are reduced to observe. No words or sounds distract. And OMG that opens a whole new world. Do I sound like a totally weird fangirl? Good. 'coz I am. But I know when and where to drool. At home or with friends watching the episodes. Not at conventions *makes a solemn vow to behave at Asylum in OMG less than 4 weeks*
Hugs and thanks for sharing.
Ilka
The trailer had me reeling with possible implications for storyline twists and of course for the brothers and their relationship. I can't tell you how much Dean's words hurt me. Not because he said them but because of the hurt it must have cost him to actually say that. I mean, using his father's hateful words and repeating them to Sam...
I know what you mean -- I thought the same thing. But all I can say is that eventually, John and Sam reunited. It took awhile, and it wasn't conventional, but before the end, they were together again. So, if Dean has to say that, my hope is that it's a forshadowing of the possibility of a reconnect with the brothers.
As for watching without the sound, I can totally relate. My daughter was born the summer between season 1 and season 2 and as soon as I got the Season 1 DVDs and when Season 2 started, I would watch epis during the late night/early morning feedings with the sound off so that I didn't disturb her. You're so right -- Jensen is a dream to watch. :)
Thank you so much for coming by. :)
*hugs you*
The back story on Jimmy/Castiel was...eh...okay but not particularly engaging. I knew the wife was going to be a demon and guessed that that neighbor was too.
I dunno. Unlike quite a few other commenters (not here), I thought Dean's reaction to Jimmy wanting to go home believable. He was like "He just wants to go home to his family." I think maybe it was a little bit of "longing for normal" holdover from last week. OH, and I thought the opening scene with Dean dreaming he was fishing--quietly enjoying peace and serenity was SUPERB.
Also, I thought the expression on Dean's face when he saw Sam drinking the demon blood from the woman's neck (and subsequently Sam's bloody mouth when he lifted his head) was horror. And then a smidge of terror thrown in when he flinched away when Sam raised his "hand of ipecac" thinking it was directed at him--not realizing at first there was a demon behind him.
And, wow, was I ever stunned by Castiel's words after he re-possessed Jimmy. "I don't serve humanity, and I certainly don't serve you." Yikes. That truly worries me.
I didn't dislike this week's episode as much as I did last week's but, oh man, that ending--as much as I've been mad at Sam for his actions (I still love him dearly) and I just wanted to hug him when they locked him in that room last night--and when Dean closed that little eye-window thing, I think I heard my heart crack. And yeah, the previews--yikes. I'm terribly worried that Kripke will not be able to repair this relationship that he's so shattered.