In a way unlike anyone else in my life, the people of this fandom have the ability to encourage me, to make me laugh, to sustain me, to make me cry, and to make me believe.
I have an amazing husband whom I adore and cannot imagine my life without. I have a baby girl who is literally the light of my life. But it is here in fandom, fanfic land, that I found my identity and I found people who helped me--who allowed me--to foster a skill I'd allowed to lay dormant and build a possibility in my head that has since become the "thing" that makes me me and not simply a wife, a mother, a friend, a lover, a sister, a daughter.
For all of that, for everything, for permission for encouragement for sly humor and for getting it, I thank you all.
I thought I'd post something about resolutions -- you know, being a better friend in 2009, losing "X" amount of pounds, or as my husband suggested, working on my upright balance. I'll just leave it at that. ;)
But then I read a post by thatgirlsix and I realized that having a resolution -- especially for someone like me who jams things in wherever she finds the time -- is useless. If I want to do any of those things, I will. And I'll do them when I most need to.
So, instead, I will just say that 2008 was a trip, man. It was a ride full of life lessons, life changes, health issues, money issues, great ideas, not-so-great ideas, tears and laughter, things that changed, and things that remained the same. And I'm glad that it's over. And I'm glad that in a few hours a brand new year will begin and I can use it to learn from the copious amounts of mistakes I made last year, improve on so many things, and make new mistakes.
You guys are one of the best things that happened in 2008, and I thank you for the time you've spent with me. I look forward to your thoughts in the months to come and thank you for sharing pieces of yourselves with me.
My best to you, always.